Reminds Me How Hard It Can Be To Forget

Naught Girl, Holly Valance

I played badminton today for the first time in ages. I don’t think I’ve actually done any sport-type-thing since GCSE, so that’s like, five years now. I went a couple of times with my friend Holly to the Sports Centre then, and we had a ball. Last week Jess and I decided we should go and play it seen as everyone’s having a big gym phase, (except me, I don’t do gyms, I don’t see why I need to when I’m perfectly fit).
Neways Jess, Liz and I spent a fun hour whacking the (shuttle)cock around the court and having a good giggle. We practised our sound effects for when we hit it and our excuses if we missed, (“I wasn’t ready!”), and even in my case, managed to get it stuck in the net along the side of the court. How I did that we still don’t know but it reduced us to tears for some reason. We are so doing it again.

I thought since I managed to get yesterday out of the way things would start to get easier. I totally crashed when I got to bed last night, and cried more than I would have liked. So long as I get through the day I don’t care if I fall apart when I’m alone in bed. I’ve been ok so far today, aside from one point during work when I was really low. Getting thoughts to stay out of your head is difficult, especially when you’re alone. Normally I spend my cleaning hours thinking about millions of things, or my biggest problem. I used to spend a lot of it daydreaming about Dom. Now I spend it desperately trying not to think about him. It’s just so damn hard and I don’t want to be in this place.

I discovered an amazing new program, thanks to a link on Justin’s blogg. It’s called iLike and seems to be some kind of way of sharing musical interests. I downloaded the toolbar that attaches to itunes, and boy is it useful. It brings up free downloadable songs by artist similar to those you like, and I’ve added numerous already. It’s a good job my ipod has far more storage!

Tomorrow I’m supposed to be going to a fair, (as in ones with candyfloss and rides), so if I don’t blogg you know where I am.
Ali, you haven’t been around today, but I’m assuming you’ll read this, so I hope you results were ok and that you’ve fixed le computer. Missed talking to you honey. *hugs

Love and Huggles, Claire