You Want To Shut Out The Night, You Want To Shut Out The Sun, You Want To Shut Away The Pieces Of A Broken Heart

Rock and Roll Dreams, Meat Loaf

I’m still alive. Simply existing. I get up, go through the day doing whatever stupid task I have to do then finally get to go to sleep and forget.

It hurts and I don’t know how to make it stop. It’s not that he broke up with me, it’s that we’re not together that hurts. I can forgive in a second, so there’s no hurt or anger there. I just don’t want to be alone; I want to be with him.

*brief intermission in which much blogg browsing and some chemicals homework is done.

Whilst wandering around everyone’s bloggs on SimonG I found this on Aviatrix’s blogg.

When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it.
Henry Ford

Now Ford may not have been a peacemaker like Woodrow Wilson or a Teddy Roosevelt, but out of all the US Presidents I looked at in A Level History, this guy had one of the toughest jobs. He had to remind the American people that the President, the White House, and pretty much everything political wasn’t a screw. I think he also got lumped with Vietnam, but that could have been Carter. This guy didn’t ask for the big P, he said that himself, he was just keeping the seat warm. I respect him greatly for the task he faced and how he tackled it.

I want to say that this has kicked me up my arse and sorted me out. It has to a small extent. But I’m not an airplane; they have HUGE engines to help them fight the wind. I don’t.

To conclude there wasn’t an awful lot of point in blogging really. I still feel like I did when I started. Buggar.

"Bed, Bath and Beyond, it’s a big place, there’s a lot of “beyond” in there."

Chris, Beauty and the Geek, Episode 3, Series 2

Firstly I got that from a website I use to help me when I need to know TV trivia. I now have the power to look up what happens in the rest of the series. Crap. I WILL not do that.

So today’s episode saw the loss of one of my favourite Geeks, Thais, the Rubix Cube Dude. *is not impressed. Thankfully my favourite Geek, Josh still remains. What worries me is his partner has twice tried to eliminate another Beauty, and twice failed. I sense the bitchiness, and fear for my Geek. This isn’t what the shows supposed to be about people!!!! I guess we’ll see what happens. Josh to win!!

Love and Huggles, Claire

Knowing Me Knowing You, It’s The Best I Can Do

Knowing Me, Knowing You, ABBA

As some of you will know by now, and some of you won’t, Dominic and I broke up on Monday.

I’m doing ok I guess, still got some way to go before I’m completely right, but I’m getting there. It helps we’re still friends. I think it would be harder if we weren’t still talking.

Thank you to everyone for their support and help, particularly Jess and Liz, and the chatpeople like Helena and Ali.

Love and Huggles, Claire

Lifting Shadows Off A Dream Once Broken

Lifting Shadows Off A Dream, Dream Theater, because apparently that's what I did.....

Despite the crapness and idiocy of my life at this current moment I shall blogg about something much nicer, namely Valentines Day. It was my first actual Valentines Day with someone, normally it just passes me by with the brief hope that someone would be crazy enough to notice me….but anyhoo I had a wonderful day with Dominic, there was melted chocolate and strawberries, yummy!

Love and Huggles, Claire

Make My Cherry Pop

Candyman, Christina Aguilera

Today was a day for Sorting Things Out. My laptop was collected and taken away to be fixed, so hopefully she will return with wireless abilities. Whilst my Dad stayed hoe to give her to the Collection Dudette, I went to Manchester with my Mum and sister, mainly because I needed to get my ipod sorted.

So I went and booked a slot to see the “Geniueseseses”, then went back to see the lovely dude, who not only explained what I’d done (by dropping Perdita I’d bashed and then frozen the hard disk), but also showed me on a pre-bashed and broken ipod. To fix her would have cost about £80, and after some discussion it was concluded that it would be more cost effective in the long run to buy a new one. I went and had a look at the Nano’s, went away and mused and talked to my mum, then went back and bought a new one.

Her name is Cherry, she is a brand new 8G (product)red Nano. She matches my Aids phone nicely, and I love her to pieces. I promise not to drop her or harm her in anyway. And man isn’t she light? Apple Exclusive and damn fine.

Poor Perdita, she shall be kept as a memory of my Mini Days. RIP Perdie.

Love and Huggles, Claire

“It was like looking at the sun. Is it beautiful? Yes. Can it blind you? Yes.”

A Geek from Beauty and The Geek.

I watched the second episode of that today, having seen the start of this series at Dom’s last weekend. I love geeks; they are by far the sweetest and coolest people ever. I know for a fact that the “freaks, geeks and social rejects” are the best people to be friends with. They’re not obsessed with climbing the social ladder and do not bitch. They are the ones who will like you for who you are and except you faults. My social group was not the popular one, but it was the closest knit group in our year. I may not be the world's biggest geek, but I am damn proud to be a little geeky.

So I shall be watching the Beauty and The Geek and drooling over the Geeks. Mainly because they are so sweet and seem so desperate to be loved I just want to cuddle them all! Darn this compassionate streak.

Thank God my boyfriend is a Geek. He’s gorgeous.

Love and Huggles, Claire

There Are No Cats In America And (The Moon Is Made Of Cheese)

An American Tale, a film about a mouse called Fiver who moves with his family to America. They sing a song about there being no cats there and the streets being paved with cheese. Today’s blog(g) title is in tribute to Google Moon *

Wednesday night I was at Dominic’s. I went round as usual after work but thanks to a very drunk Stan I was told to stay the night. Woot! We had lots of fun as per usual, especially once I took my contact lenses out and tried to watch Friends without glasses on, (my glasses not being with me). Japanese subtitles are funny when they are all blurry.

We had snow yesterday, lots of it, but it’s all gone today. Bummer, I wanted to make a mini snowman.
My ipod is still broken, I miss her so much. But on the other hand I rang the laptop people who are coming to take my laptop away and this time fix her. I hope.

I’m sure I have something else to say but it seems to have escaped me. Damn just like my hamsters used to…why oh why did they run away. Could it be I didn’t squeeze them tightly enough or let my sister kick their exercise ball enough?*2

Love and Huggles, Claire

*hopes she can be bothered to insert a link, if not Google it. Then zoom riiiiiight in on the moon.

http://moon.google.com/

*2 I never actually had a hamster escape. I had one once who went to live in my cousin. Unfortunately my sister did kick its exercise ball once…..my hamster was never the same, she became EVIL.

It’s The Eye Of The Tiger, It’s The Thrill Of The Fight

Eye Of The Tiger, Survivor, thanks Jess it’s in my head and I cannie get it out.

It has been a busy couple of days. There probably should have been a lot more arty stuff done, especially as my teacher is desperate to see my folder. He doesn’t quite know I haven’t even finished the first project and I should be on the second my now. I did point out to him today when he collared me during work that I’m only doing the art because they made me do 2 AS’s. I don’t even need to pass it but a grade of some kind would be nice. I’d start panicking but I’m not that fussed really. Having said that I will get some work done. *blows on wet glue on her sketchbook, dry damn you, dry!

In other news, well Liz isn’t very well, she has a chest infection, so get well Liz and hurry back to work, we miss you. I also saw a UPS van and thought of you Justin. The thought line was something like “OOOO UPS, I’ve never seen them in England. Hehehe Justin says they’re poop.” Moving on…..

I was thoroughly emboffed last weekend; I went round after meeting Luke on Saturday and didn’t leave until gone nine at night on Sunday. We had lots of fun, watching the rest of Vic Reeves, doing my Chemistry homework, (which took about 2 hours), cuddling and other fun activities. We went and met Becky and Rhodsey Saturday night for a drink (or three), and had lots of fun. I forgot that I’d given blood and being a pint less meant three pints of cider and blackcurrant got me well past tipsy. Oops. Never mind, Dominic looked after me, not that I was ill. Then we were lazy and didn’t get up till half one on Sunday. Hmm sleep and snuggles, a deadly but yummy combination.

Luke’s friend he came home with, Craig, is lovely. Like a glasses wearing-straight haired version of Blondie. He was so lovely he gave me a hug when he said hello and a hug when we said goodbye. We munched our way through dinner and pick and mix, wandered round Rawtenstall showing it’s various delights, (Turkish and Angle) to Craig. Somewhere along the way I promised to send Blondie a box of my cookies and Craig a box of brownie. Any thoughts on packaging folks??

Today I had dinner with Jess, and a mooch around various places, which was lots of fun. I get my Avon tomorrow, so hopefully I’ll get some playing around with it too. Whoppeee for Avon!

Love and Huggles, Claire

As Long As I Got Blood Rush Through My Veins I'm Still Alive

I'm Still Alive, Meat Loaf

Just a quickie to let you know I'm still alive after giving blood. This was my second time, and didn't go so well. last time I was fine but as soon as I got to where they give you a drink I started feeling hot, dizzy and sick. Not to mention the lack of clear vision. It was awful and took a good few hours to settle. I still donated, and still will do again but maybe you're right Andy, maybe a pint out of me is a bit much.....eeep.

Feelin' fine now and off to have dinner with Luke and then to Dominics house. Waaaay! for emboffification.

Love and Huggles, Claire

Lost In The Sky, Clouds Roll By and I Roll With Them

Pull Me Under, Dream Theater (Dominic titled tonights blog(g) because I was too lazy to think of one)

Look I remembered to blog(g) again. Last night I was at Dominic’s and got back too late to blog(g). Advanced notice I will be there on Saturday night and may not blog(g) on Sunday. Depends how sleepy I feel. Or if I can be bothered to do Mr Holt’s Chemicals homework*. Tomorrow night I’m giving blood again, so that depends on how drained I feel after being drained.

Today was pretty good, I was still very happy after being emboffed. Unfortunately cleaning left me wondering why the hell I try to do a good job, or even go that extra mile for them when all my supervisors seem to do is pick faults and make me feel like crap.

Emoboffment was lovely; I got met off the bus and then snuggled up once we’d got back to his. Hmmm cuddles. We watched the Simpson’s and various other programs. Richard Hammond is back on Top Gear, that dude rocks, he stopped a car at 228mph with his HEAD! I’m excited because I get to sleep over at Dominic’s on Saturday. Ooo that’s means lots of lovely cuddles. Because you can never have enough cuddles and kisses from you’re boff. Especially when your boff is as lovely as mine is. (Which I bet he isn’t.)

I’ve been for lunch twice with Liz as well. On two separate days, I’m not that greedy *reaches for the bar of chocolate, (no I’m not joking there). Neways must catch up with my diary.

Hope you’re feeling better soon Merman. *hugs

Love and Huggles, Claire

* Not likely