If We’re Trying, So We’re Breaking Free

Breaking Free, High School Musical (told you it would be my blogg title Katie)

I went ice skating today, for the first time in about 5 years. Katie invited me so she didn’t have to go alone and so I didn’t sit at home feeling lonely and full of missingness. I was rather terrified, (to the point of nearly throwing up). Last time I went I’d hurt my ankle a month or so earlier and it wasn’t properly healed so I got round the rink once then gave up because I was in agony.

Despite being more than a little afraid I forced myself onto the ice and grabbed Katie’s hand, (and didn’t let go). Somehow I managed to stay upright the whole time AND figured out to move forwards. At a fairly decent speed. It was fun, I want to go again and practise some more. Next time see if I can skate a little on my own maybe. I’m so glad I went and gave it another shot. It was worth the pain my ankles are giving me now. Thanks so much Katie for today!

AND guess what. My Geek, Josh, won Beauty and the Geek. He won! I am so proud of him, he totally deserved it. Josh rocks! As Jennifer said, there should be more guys like him.

Love and Huggles, Claire

Ooh Baby Love, It’s Hurting Me

Baby Love, Diana Ross and the Supremes

Badminton day! My aim is improving a lot, or rather my ability to hit the shuttlecock is. It’s nice to have something to whack as hard as you can, much better than hitting your head on a wall. I wouldn’t recommend that, you just end up with a headache and feel even worse. Although I got told off for hitting it so hard, but frankly, I’m making sure the frustration doesn’t build up. So I’ll hit it as hard as I like. Last time I checked you were supposed to give it a damn good whack anyway.

Lancaster is looking far more likely, I discovered this morning that Lancaster will pay me far more to study there than I first though. £2000 is a hell of a big pull. Plus the rabbits.
Helena as most of you know, is now in labour so hopefully next time I blogg there will be another little baby in the world. It’s so exciting. I hope it all goes smoothly for her.

Blergh early start tomorrow, up at 7.15 for Chem. But there’s a silver lining, we’re making bread! OOOO

Love and Huggles, Claire

Reminds Me How Hard It Can Be To Forget

Naught Girl, Holly Valance

I played badminton today for the first time in ages. I don’t think I’ve actually done any sport-type-thing since GCSE, so that’s like, five years now. I went a couple of times with my friend Holly to the Sports Centre then, and we had a ball. Last week Jess and I decided we should go and play it seen as everyone’s having a big gym phase, (except me, I don’t do gyms, I don’t see why I need to when I’m perfectly fit).
Neways Jess, Liz and I spent a fun hour whacking the (shuttle)cock around the court and having a good giggle. We practised our sound effects for when we hit it and our excuses if we missed, (“I wasn’t ready!”), and even in my case, managed to get it stuck in the net along the side of the court. How I did that we still don’t know but it reduced us to tears for some reason. We are so doing it again.

I thought since I managed to get yesterday out of the way things would start to get easier. I totally crashed when I got to bed last night, and cried more than I would have liked. So long as I get through the day I don’t care if I fall apart when I’m alone in bed. I’ve been ok so far today, aside from one point during work when I was really low. Getting thoughts to stay out of your head is difficult, especially when you’re alone. Normally I spend my cleaning hours thinking about millions of things, or my biggest problem. I used to spend a lot of it daydreaming about Dom. Now I spend it desperately trying not to think about him. It’s just so damn hard and I don’t want to be in this place.

I discovered an amazing new program, thanks to a link on Justin’s blogg. It’s called iLike and seems to be some kind of way of sharing musical interests. I downloaded the toolbar that attaches to itunes, and boy is it useful. It brings up free downloadable songs by artist similar to those you like, and I’ve added numerous already. It’s a good job my ipod has far more storage!

Tomorrow I’m supposed to be going to a fair, (as in ones with candyfloss and rides), so if I don’t blogg you know where I am.
Ali, you haven’t been around today, but I’m assuming you’ll read this, so I hope you results were ok and that you’ve fixed le computer. Missed talking to you honey. *hugs

Love and Huggles, Claire