Breakfast at Tiffany's?

Change of scenary

2008-12-31T17:42:00.002Z

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A Change, A Change, Would Do You Good

2008-12-28T23:25:00.002Z

I finally opened the perfume Richard bought me for Christmas and realised just how nice it is to change scents once in a while. I usually wear Angel, which is very sweet and chocolaty. Richard bought me Promesse, which is all blackcurranty.
Suffice to say I love the smell and because I'm not used to it I can smell it more often. Remind me to rotate my scents more often!

Right, now I'm off to look after a rather sick Richard and watch some of Star Trek Nemesis. I forgot what a good team the Next Gen crew make!

xoxo

2008-12-26T21:26:00.002Z

Well well well, did we all have nice Christmases? Ours was looking a little shaky but once mum had bullied dad into letting Richard sleep on the living room floor all was well. It was a perfect family Christmas, made even better by Richards presence.
I was very lucky in terms of gifts, some very perfect and well chosen ones were given to me. Richard bought me the most elegant necklace ever, and my nanna a dressing gown that is so very warm, (essential for this freezing cold house!!!). Pride of place on my book shelf is iGentics 2nd edition, one of m course texts next term. Mum and Dad got it me, which means I can buy a course text for the other module AND a subscription to Nature* when my next loan installment comes in.
All in all a very lovely Christmas. My sister didn't moan because I was around and my dad didn't sulk because we had a Richard staying with us :) I hope yours were all as nice.

Thanks to National rail not runnng Boxing Day trains (desipte route planner saying there WERE trains last week), my parents gave us a lift home, which helped somewhat with the fact I'm was working at 1pm at River Island. Which had a MASSIVE sale on. It was so unbelievably busy.
And a little worrying given the current climate. Either way 4 hours insane work earned me £60ish. Give or take the tax mans cut. (I WILL get that back you B*******).

Right well I shall be off now to see where my brew has got to.
Hope everyone is well and happy
xoxo

*because New Scientists just isn't cutting it this year.....

2008-12-15T20:01:00.002Z

As always it's been too long. But I have, as always been busy. Lectures, coursework, that damned further reading, and 2 jobs.

I've made it through the first part of my second year, although I still have a fair bit of work I still haven't done. Going to work throug it this holidays in a slow steady manner. There's no pressure so it's easier to do.

Richard and I are still happily little loved up bunnies :) The girls have gone home for Christmas
so we've got the house to ourselves. AND we're happily planning our second christmas together :)

We've found a lovely house for next year, which is much nicer than this one we're in. I've still to sort out when we move in, but they said come back in the summerso I shall trot back then.

Now I shall go and find out if they have snow at home and if I can pop home for a couple of days....

Hats off

2008-11-06T22:20:00.005Z

So in a brief break from all the work I have to do I popped into town with Richard. We wandered around and had a very nice coffee, I can heartily recommend Costa's Maple Syrup Latte, and then called in at Sainsbury's so I could get a sandwich for my packed lunch tomorrow (I'm going to Knowsely Safari Park*). And on our hunt for the prepacked sandwiches I found these:

They came with little woolly hats on! I cannot tell you how excited this made me, but I'm sure you can guess. I spent ages trying to decide which hats to get. No idea what to do with them once I've drank the drink but they are still so very cute. Innocent smoothies are amazing.

*yes it does count as educational. We're looking at ungulates as part of my Evolution and Behaviour module. I hope there are cute fluffy things......

2008-10-27T17:42:00.002Z

Yes I know, long time no blogg but with all fairness I haven't had any internet access since I moved a month agao. When I have been online it's to print out journels and such likes for uni, because I am a good girl :)
I am very well and happy, thanks for asking. I hope everyone else is good too. Hopefully now I will be blogging more regularly but don't hold out any hopes just yet :)
Newyays I haven't done an awful lot today so I'd best go be productive.
you know you love me xoxo

I only smile in private

2008-09-24T21:13:00.003+01:00

Ok so yet again I haven't blogged in aaaaages. *looks embarrassed. With all fairness I have been very very busy flitting from home to Richards to work and back again.

This last week before I go back to university is hectic. Richards spent most of the week packing and is currently repainting his bedroom to hide the fact he's had a million pictures on his wall. The biggest bug bare would be getting rid of his furniture.The second hand shop who originally told us they'd collect it have basically decided they can't be arsed with it. Annoyingly this means he's had to give most of it to the girlfriend of his current housemate. The annoying thing is she hasn't even offered him a penny. Which seems a little bit cheeky of her but there's not much we can do when we need it gone fast.

I can't remember what else has happened to me recently. I managed to pass my theory test which means I will be carrying on driving lessons in Lancaster, regardless of how futile it sometimes seems.
I'm still working at ASDA and waiting to find out if they can transfer me to the store at uni but I think I'll be looking for a job in town as well. It's closer than ASDA which means I could pick up the odd weekday shift. We shall see.

I can't think of anything else I'm supposed to say, but look I blogged :)
Now does someone want to help me pack?

Packing it all in

2008-08-14T14:32:00.002+01:00

I am finding this whole packing lark very difficult. I don't like picking out my clothes for a whole week ahead of schedule, but it's done. Shoes are another tricky thing, but kinda done. I'm very much a silk scarf girl, so I've packed a couple, and my pearls and Tiffany heart.

But then it gets harder, what books to take??? Given I've owned most of the Gossip Girl series for about 3 years now but have yet to read any some of those, the first three in particular, are coming. But I need something more highbrow. Bill Bryon's "A Walk In The Woods" is coming, and so is Mr Dawkins and his Selfish Genes.

You know what, I shall just leave it for the moment. Unprepared never killed anyone. Right?

2008-08-13T22:39:00.001+01:00

Apparently I'm 6977 days old. About the same as stilton then.

And Richard is 12642 days old. He really is ancient!

Every moment that I love you is a moment, a moment of truth to hold on to

2008-08-13T21:33:00.006+01:00

Eeeeek I haven't blogged in ages. It doesn't help I'm rather busy most of the time. Usually making pizzas or with Richard but mostly busy.

And you've missed alot, I've booked my theory test, made about fifty million pizzas, have rediscovered my geeky/nerd side, seen Mr Blitz even if ever so briefly.....and I'm sure there's lots more stuff.

OO I saw Wall-e......it's brilliant, go see! First time I've used Orange Wednesdays and I can't believe how simple it is.

Richard and I have hit and passed our first year anniversary together last Friday. We went to a local It alien restaurant on Monday to celebrate, which was lovely even if they did have baby chicken and RABBIT on the menu. We don't often get the time to go on dates, aside from many lunches and brews at Tesco whilst we were in that brief period between friends and lovers we haven't been on more than about 6 dates. When you spend most of the time just seeing them once a week it's time together that's important not how you spend it.

More good news is that he rang ASDA Lancaster back and was told there is most likely a position there for him now. They've had a week so the plan is to ring again and confirm some kind of hours. It's such a relief :) Now just the other million things to sort out.

I go away with the family for a week on Saturday. I'd say yay but I'm not looking forward to not seeing Richard for a whole week. Mobile phone signal is so bad we'll have very little contact and that is Not Good when we tell each other everything. Even "just running a bath"!! I could do with a week away from rushing around at work so at least it should be restful.

See you soon folks, hope you're all well.
xoxo

And I said what about breakfast at Tiffany's?

2008-07-29T22:15:00.003+01:00

Alot has happened since my last blogg, I have turned 20, visited the zoo and seen many VERY cute animals, continued to work and make pizzas for a living and plod along with my driving lessons. I've seen the ending of the first series of Gossip Girl, so now I'm seeking something to fill the gap of Queen B-have you seen what she's wearing-craziness that it was. It was nice to see Michelle Trachenburg in something less sweet and innocent too :)

Richard and I have hit a snag with our move to Lancaster. Apparently the ASDA in Lancaster hasn't got any vacancies. Which means he currently has no job there. Rather worrying. We've got our fingers crossed that something turns up at ASDA. In the mean time we're working on a shiny CV to send people in Lancaster before we move. Not something we needed really.

Hopefully the lovely people in Merkinland hit by the earthquake are OK too. Jane that means you so poke me to show you're OK!!!

I was going to leave you with some zoo pictures but after poking around my laptop I found I haven't yet put them on here. Ooops, maybe next time :)

you know you love me xoxo

I can't decide if you should live or you should die

2008-07-17T19:45:00.005+01:00

Another break in the blogging but I'm sure you will forgive me. I've been plodding my way through a 35 hour week, and all but 5 hours of that is done :) It hasn't been too bad, but I'm very very glad next week I've just got my contracted hours and that's it. I need the sleep, the bags under my eyes are huge! Being up at half six when your body isn't used to it isn't fun.

Other than work I've continued the grand sort out of my bedroom and list a fair bit on ebay. So far I've raised nearly £45, which should go someway towards a Channel silk scarf or some other treat (and if it's the Channel it's a Treat with a capital T). The only thing I've used my hard earned pennies for is an academic diary because try as I may I can't find ANY in the shops below £3. And yes, I am a cheap skate. I'm a poor student.

Last night was a staff pub quiz held at Madison's Wine Bar, (local readers will know where that is). I've not been in Madison's since it's revamp, and might not have been in prior, but it was never painted in a shiny lovely light really. I must say it is lovely inside, and rather than a loud raucous pub, it seems to be a lovely place to go for a quiet drink.
As for the quiz my team consisted of myself, Richard, Richards work friend Colin, and my work friends Katie and Jane. Unfortunately for Katie and myself the questions were very much aimed at the 35+ audience, so we knew very little, but Colin and Richard seemed to have it all pretty much covered. Overall we came third, beaten by the managers team, (who I don't doubt knew at least some questions prior) and the home shopping team, which had 2 geniuses on it. So not bad, and it was brilliant to see Katie again, I haven't seen her since Easter properly.

Now before I go I want you all to close your eyes and wish for nice weather this weekend. Preferably Saturday. It's my birthday you see and I want to go to the zoo. I can't go any other weekend because Richard won't be able to get another weekend off for about six months. (One weekend off in four my arse)
Thanks for the weather help in advance :)

And the results are in....

2008-07-10T10:19:00.002+01:00

Well folks, I got my results and you can all rest easy now.

I PASSED!!!

With a 2.1 :)

Don't I just kick ass sometimes?

He smiles it's like the radio

2008-07-09T22:21:00.002+01:00

Well tomorrow I get my results. I'm not thinking about it too much really. It's after :) Hopefully it won't take too long to get them online. It better not.

Not alot is new with me. Been to see Hancock, Will Smith is gorgeous as ever and I rather didn't expect the plot. Nice to see him doing something more grown up, I still recall the Fresh Prince days. Went with Chrish, Jess, Liz and her friend Dan. Then to Frankie and Bennys, which is the first time I've eaten a full meal there. Nice, can't fault the service but I rather feel the prices are a bit much. It was a good night though, much fun was ahd by all AND I didn't walk into the wrong toilet this time.....

I'm pretty much all unpacked from uni, aside from a bag of shoes which I really don't have anywhere to put. I'm slowly sorting everything out, ebaying as much of it as possible, but plenty is still heading to the charity shops.

And as for my favourite topic, Richard, well things are wonderful as always. We marked 11 months yesterday :) Possibly the best 11 months of my life. Certainly don't know what I'd do without him.

I should head to bed now, I don't know whether I'll be crawling out of bed very early to watch for results. I can see much pressing of the F5 key

Shes like a dreamer in a dungeon or an angel in a cave

2008-07-02T21:58:00.002+01:00

Well I have a new haircut, the fringe has been altered slightly but I don't quite know what it looks like till it's dried and straightened. Hopefully not a mess. My layers are back in, which helps it curl nicely but it doesn't feel like there is much hair on my head right now. Eeek.

I actually managed to get another theory test paper done, AND more importantly didn't fail it. It's all about learning to think as a driver, which may be all common sense but I do kinda lack that. I'm wondering that if I just book a test for a few weeks off I'd be able to make myself ready for that. After a year of constant deadlines and revision I'm struggling to make the effort to revise for this.

Richard was lovely and sweet, he found an extra tenner in his coat pocket and presented me with a Meat Loaf CD when he arrived at work. Most of it I've already got, but it's the thought that counts. And it is nice to be treated. Bless him :)

I have to be up earlier than normal for work tomorrow so I shall bid thee goodnight :)
Hope you're all well my friends.

Baby On Board

2008-07-01T21:41:00.002+01:00

Greetings from the world of Claire : ) How are we all? All well?Oh good. Things are good with me too, I'm working a fair bit this week and trying to see as much of Richard as I possibly can.

And having driving lessons. Still plodding along with them. Defiantly improving but that's about it really. I need to find the time to revise for my theory test but between work, Richard, sorting out my room and everything else I don't seem to have enough time to get any done. I WILL do some tomorrow I WILL do some tomorrow.

As always things with Richard are wonderful. I'm currently resisting the temptation of a letter he has in his locker from my MUM! Given how he's been taunting me with it I suspect it's something to do with my birthday but I don't know. Richards giving nothing away and I don't want to probe mum in case I ruin any surprises. If anyones got any ideas what its all about, answers in a comment box please :)

Oh joy, BBC is running a news article on the Churches views on homosexuality. There was a very interesting article on it all in New Scientist the other week, apparently there is a remarkable amount of evidence, both within our own DNA and other species, that being "gay" is perfectly natural. Wonder if all that information is in the same category as evolution?

This Innocence is Brilliance

2008-06-24T22:37:00.003+01:00

God it's good to not have exams or work of any kind :) Well I've been at ASDA for a couple of days but given I still I haven't moved out booking lots of proper shifts is difficult. I've come back to Lancaster to clean my room so that this weekend we just have to pack everything up. Hell only knows where it's all gonna go when I get back....

Work has been fun, although a 7-12am shift on a Sunday is EVIL! On the one hand we don't have customers in the store till around 10.45, and can't serve till 11, so I just got to make pizzas for FIVE HOURS :) But then that half 5 start is horrid.....And trying to explain to a customer why we can't even take a pizza order before 11am is difficult. Trading Standards folks, it's the LAW, it's the same at Tesco, Salisbury's, Waitrose....if a staff member helps you before 11am they are breaking the law. But who cares anyway.
I have yet to work a shift with our little Mormon friend, she was supposed to work one with me but her name was crossed off later. I wonder why....could it be she realised that telling someone she'd like to beat me up only to find out she'd just slagged me off to an old friend of Richards wasn't her smartest idea. Honestly.

Meat Loaf was on The F Word :) He's such a funny guy :) I wonder if the mums who told their kid not to play with him cause he was too fat have any regrets.

And gawd I'm glad that Alex has gone from BB. I saw a fair amount during exam week, it's so mind numbing it was best before bed. But it's good to see the foul mouthed "women" gone.

Right I'm going to curl up in bed and watch crappy tv :) God I love freeview.

On another note *hugs to a dear friend. Deepest sympathies.

Done

2008-06-14T10:10:00.002+01:00

I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :) My exams are all done, and the last one went the best by far. It's all ecology stuff so just listening to the news can be revision. If you've got a good idea about Global Warming and stuff you're sorted. So after the manic this week has been I'm looking forward to relaxing a but. I'm going home via Manchester then to Richards today. I've got a couple of days work planned but not much really. My brain needs to chill out if not the rest of me :) In fact I should go really, I'm supposed to leave at half past. Tootles folks :)

And how did Claire not win The Apprentice???? So not right!!!

2008-06-10T19:10:00.002+01:00

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR stupid exams. The sooner they're over the better. I'm so stressed at the moment it isn't true. Saturdays exam was a disaster but it wasn't just me who flet that. The one today was much better. I'm going to take tonight off to rest my brain and try again tomorrow for the last exam.

I spent most of this evening helping my friend Hannah find her car. She parked it just off campus, where everyone parks and they towed it. Not just hers, they've started towing because people are parking there. Personally if there aren't any signs or double yellow lines then they shouldn't be just towing. Thankfully we know where the car is now, and her mum is going to help her get it back tomorrow. Fingers crossed.

It's raining hard in North Virginia Just Like London Town

2008-06-01T14:04:00.002+01:00

It's raining. How summery :(

Since my last blog I have battled on with the revision, and surprise surprise that's where I'm off next. I'm at a point where I can start past paper questions. Trouble is, which theme. I don't want to start the ones for my first exam too soon, but then again I don't know if I should be starting them. Choices choices. I'm going back on Wednesday to revise and do some more of those psycology experiements. Booked another for Wednesday teatime :)

I have a driving lesson tomorrow which I am looking forward to lots. I so want to be able to drive. Once my exams are done I can start learning all my theory stuff :)

Guess I should go bury my head in revision.....eek!

2008-05-29T15:08:00.002+01:00

*waves
YoooooHOooooo I'm still alive!

As Katie pointed out it's nearly a month without a blogg but with all fairness my degree tends to come first. I don't even get time to do all that further reading I'm supposed to do, so you really think I'm gonna blogg :P

So things have been pretty hectic this last few weeks. Currently I'm madly revising for my end of years, (and panicking about them), but in a couple of weeks that's all over and I can actually relax.

We've had further trouble with Mormon bitch, which wasn't rectified quite how we'd have hoped but on the upside she did get a formal disciplinary for bad language the other day. She is, frankly, less than lady like.

I've been to see Indiana Jones with Richard, and it is defiantly worth a look-see. Not a classic, someone should have reminded Spielberg and Lucas it isn't Star Wars. They did stick fairly well to the original formula though, although the violence seemed more hammed up (typical of to days slasher-horror fans). Harrison Ford is certainly still looking good for his age though, and I loved the nods to Marcus and his Dad.

Tomorrow I get to pretend I don't have exams and go and see Mastermind being filmed (again!) with Richard :) Should be fun, and the second date we've managed in a week.

And now I shall go back to the revising.....

2008-05-01T21:29:00.002+01:00

So as Hutters just pointed out, people don't blogg enough so I'm not being a lazy moose and actually doing so. Trouble is, my course is so lecture based that after a couple a day, and frequently a 2-4 hour practicle I'm shattered. Then add in lots of other work and........well it doesn't happen. Today I didn't finish till 5.15. My course thankfully, gives us all the notes in the lectures, but we're still supposed to read the textbook. With what time I wonder :( However I have started reading New Scientist and noting articles that I can maybe mention in the exam. And there has been some revision done....a little.

I've enrolled for next years courses : cell biology, evolution and behaviour, genetics and medical microbiology. They should be rather fun.

And we've had the contract for our house next year. The only challenge will be decieding who gets what room. I'd quite like my own room, it's somewhere to store my stuff and work, so it makes sense if Richard and me had the large room and the smallest room located on the second floor. That leaves a large bedroom on the first, and the front room bedroom on the ground floor. Which is massive. There is talk of getting the downstairs bedroom turned into a proper living room, which would be brillaint, but would mean I'd lose my room.

Neways I shall go try and do my perception tests, one of which is impossible. *grumble

2008-04-19T22:09:00.002+01:00

Back at uni from tomorrow. Nearly packed and ready to go back in that sense. In other senses I'm not really, the fact that I won't see Richard for a whole week is pretty horrendous but we're comforting each other with the knowlage that it's only for about 5 weeks. The year is pretty much over.

On a happier note, wasn't Doctor Who good? I think I rather love the Ood and did we all spot that thing that links in to the lst few episodes? And YAY for the Sontarns next week.

Driving lesson number two went very well, and it was actually lots of fun towards the end. Which is certainly going to help if I'm not dreading it!

2008-04-15T21:39:00.002+01:00

Yay for new glasses! They arrived today and are all shiny and new. Were they worth £300? NO comment :( At least I can see a little better now.

I'm trying to figure out where the last four weeks have gone. I'm back at uni from Sunday which is going to be more bitter than sweet. I'm looking forward to all the excitment of three new modules, finsihing them all finnaly and picking next years but it brings separation from Richard and horrid summer exams. I haven't done any revision at all, but I've got tomorrow ear marked for that. If I can at least get some of the revision notes done things will be better. And as for not seeing Richard till weekends, well, I'm not thinking about that at all. It will suck.

My driving lesson last week went ok, the instructor is nice and I'm almost looking forward to my next lesson. Mum's car is comng up from Nannas on Thursday so it's all happening :) I have another lesson booked for Thursday so we shall see. It wasn't a complete disaster so that helps

Stay well folks and be happy xxxx

Ouchie that hurt my bank balence

2008-04-08T13:38:00.005+01:00

Right unless I get distracted once I've blogged I'm turning the laptop off and going to remake those notes I need to finish my coursework. As the chances of getting distracted are pretty big we'd better make this quick.

On the "big" note, my glasses bill was huge. Not £100, not £200 but just over THREE HINDERED POUNDS!
And my right eye isn't any worse and the left has only got worse by one point, (unfortunately it is a vital point because things aren't so clear these days).
So yes, £300+ for new glasses and that's with a 20% discount for having my contacts from them as well. The frames were about £140ish so what made up the rest was my lenses. If I weren't so blind and didn't need uber-thinned fancy lenses I'd have much cheaper glasses. Nuts.
However the glasses are really really nice. I very nearly ended up with some Velma from Scooby Doo style purple ones but settled for some more professional metal ones. I feel rather science nerd in them, perfect for all my PCR reactions I plan to run :)

Tonight I get to go see my sister in some drama thing her club are doing. She did have a line as a king and mum spent ages making her a cape only to find the scene has been cut and now my sister isn't speaking at all and is a fairy. Big changes. As long as she's happy.

Currently I'm resisting the urge to snack. It's a strong urge but I should do some work and fight it. I did say I was blogging then working, but we have been to Tesco and back during it. OOoooppps.
Ok I AM going to do this work. Again.

I bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about

2008-04-01T21:53:00.002+01:00

Right a proper blog seems to be called for. A fair bit seems to have happened in the last few days, Richard and I went back to Lancaster for a few days and had a lovely time. It was brilliant to have the flat to ourselves, although 2 in a single bed is rather difficult.

Mastermind was brilliant, rather interesting, even if the large number of media students thought it was boring. I got the impression they'd never seen it before they went so hadn't a clue. John Humphrey's is lovely, rather funny when he wants and I had an urge to take him home and make him an honory grandparent.

I've managed to finish one piece of coursework today, although not the one I set out to do admittedly. I discovered I've left a bunch of notes back at uni, even more annoying as Richard was using that pad of paper for nerd letters and it never occurred to me that the notes were in it and I should bring it home! Which means I have to do it all over again. Bugger!

Things are still good with Richard. Yesterday I was in work for the first time in AGES without him being there too, and god it was weird. And boring, very very boring. People please buy your deli goods on a Monday, the store is DEAD! He did pick me up after work though and we spent the evening/night together. Friday and Saturday see the end of Torchwood and the beginning of Tennants last full series of Dr.Who. His excitement has rubbed off on me, I'm eager to see how they're going to explain this "daughter" they keep hinting about. Many seem to have forgotten the Dr. must already have a daughter, given his first regeneration pootled around with his granddaughter. See I am a nerd :)
And proud of it :)

2008-03-26T11:20:00.001Z

Help unemployment is rife in Bunny Utopia!

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and whilst your at it can you help my transport :)

http://bunny-utopia.myminicity.com/tra

Ta chickens!

2008-03-22T13:44:00.002Z

Hellooooo folks :) I'm home and rather happy about it. This week is my resting week before three weeks for making sure I have all my revision notes for the 12 modules I've done so far, finishing (and starting) my 2 practical reports, driving lessons and work. This week should be good. Richard has Tuesday to Sunday off so we're going back to Lancaster for a lovely week of a flat to ourselves :) Be nice to have some proper quality time together. He did spend the whole week with me the other week, but when I'm constantly zipping off to lectures it isn't really proper quality time.

Neways I have tickets for us to go see the MasterMind being filmed on Thursday in Manchester somewhere, which should be good. Unless we do anything else romantic that will be date number 4. Not bad for nearly 8 months together ;)

OOOOOOoo and we've got a house for next year. We officially signed for 79 Lune Street last Saturday, and it seems lovely. I'm glad it's done, a real weight off my mind, and Richards told his landlord here he's moving so thats all sorted. So as of September we will officially be living together :)
This is the house next door, so it's a bit like this but nicer
http://www.studenthousinglancaster.co.uk/property-search.php?property=294

I've done 3 more modules, which is a bit scary, there's only 3 more left this year. What's even more scary is I have to provisionally enrol online once I get back. So I spent alot of this week poking around on the Internet, looking at the modules for next year, their course descriptions and timetables and stuff. I think it's gonna be Genetics and Evolution and Behaviour for me. I really wanna do Genetics, and E+B is the only "ecology" module that seems to fit. I have to do 1 Anatomy style module and 1 Ecology style module you see. Once I've enrolled I want to speak to the lecturers about possibly volunteering in the labs at holidays seen as I won't be going home. I'd happily observe for free, it all builds up my CV for when I graduate.

Right must fly, time to visit Nanna and Grandpa.
Tootles folks xxxxxxx

2008-03-07T10:12:00.000Z

Come on people I'm one click a way from 100 bunny people!

http://bunny-utopia.myminicity.com/

http://bunny-utopia.myminicity.com/ind would be good as well :)

Bobbing Along

2008-03-04T08:53:00.003Z

This is me killing time before my doctors appointment at half nine. Don't worry I'm not ill, it's all in aid of a repeat prescription.
Lets start by clicking this folks;
http://bunny-utopia.myminicity.com/

Right on to whats new with me. Well not an awful lot that I can recall. Mum has bought a car, or rather is being donated a car by a family friend. The idea being I can learn to drive it, and buy it off her if she can't afford to run it and I pass before September. This is all brilliant, it means once Mum is confident enough to drive she can let me practise as much as possible this summer. It would be much cheaper to buy it from her than a new car, especially as that would take nearly all of my savings. I think I'll offer to lend her the money for some lessons this Easter, the sooner she's driving it the sooner I can.

You all remember Mormon Girl, (when I say girl read bitch), from Counters at ASDA who tried to get Richard to cheat on me? Well she was up to her usual dirty tricks last weekend, telling Richard he didn't really love me and shouldn't be with me. He was forcibly removed from our department by her when he popped past to say hello. So we came up with out own little plan, we might as well have some fun with her jealousy. Richard talked to two of the more senior and older women on the department to check he was ok to wander past to chat or just say hello when it was quiet and they were perfectly fine with it. These women after all have watched our romance blossom :) The frequent visits from my other half worked, Mormon Girl was doing a good impression of the Incredible Hulk come the end of our shift. I'm not one for revenge but to try and persuade Richard he doesn't love me or should cheat on me? She's lucky she hasn't been slapped.* (Overall things are pretty good with us two, he's down for a whole week next week YAY)

Neways I better go and do lots of work. We've got dozens of house viewings today. The one I blogged about wasn't very nice but we've seen a lovely one I really like, but it's in a bit of a rough area. Still we've got plenty of time yet.

*don't worry we've planned ahead in the event she puts in a formal complaint. We'd easily have support from the other women Richard was doing nothing wrong AND we wouldn't think twice about repeating what she's said to Richard. Horrid creature, I don't quite understand where her good Mormon teachings are. WWJD?

2008-02-20T21:59:00.002Z

Helloooooo my lovelies. Before we start please click on

http://bunny-utopia.myminicity.com/ .....because I'd like more bunny people.

Before I settle down to do even more work I thought I'd show you the house I'm going to look at tomorrow with my friend Hannah and her friend Lucy. Hannah and I have mused over the idea of living together, plus Richard next year and have finally decieded to go for it. I'm supposed to take some pictures and show them to Richard on Friday. I just hope a) the landlord doesn't mind the fact he's not a student and b) that we make it back for the practical at 2! We're meeting the landlord at one so hopefully it won't take too long. Cross your fingers.
Neways this is the place;
http://www.studenthousinglancaster.co.uk/property-search.php?property=274

Wish us luck folks!

Kicking dust in the canyon wind

2008-02-17T22:04:00.002Z

Hellooo folks, have we all had good weekends?

The last few days of my life have been rather eventful. Not major events, just minor ones that add to life rich tapestry. The first is I'm moving departments at work, from frozen to the deli, (or as it's more correctly know "Counters"). I will also have hours there every Saturday unless I contact Matt and let him know well in advance. Counters is easier work, no heavy comps, but is occasionally frantic. It also means I'm closer to Richard, as Provisions is adjacent to Counters. Am I going to spend my shifts oogling him? Probably. :)

Tomorrow I start my next set of modules, and I'm rather tired. Rather than get a reading week us science students, (like many others I suspect), must work on. A 10 week term is exhausting, after 5 mad weeks I could go for a week off to rest myself. I seem to be feeling rather lethargic far too often. Given I'm eating well my only other thought it to try and make it to bed earlier. Not that I was going very late anyway but you never know, it might help.

Missing Richard alot tonight. Since Wednesday I've seen him every day, so to not have him here and know that it'll be Friday before I'm with him is tough. Busy I shall be keeping. We had a lovely Valentines Day together, maostly spent lounging around and relishing each others company. We chatted a little more about future plans, about our wedding and thing. I'm odd, most teenage girls who are hopeless romantics have already planned their weddings but for me it's always been about finding that one guy who is meant for us. So the actual wedding seems less important. We''d both prefer to spend more on our honeymoon and go to Australia, especially as we'd like to emigrate there.
I also finnaly asked Richard what his thoughts on being a stay at home dad were. In our current situation it's likely I'd be the primary breadwinner, which I don't mind in the least but once we start a family, in several years time, money would be an issue if I weren't working. Richards brother looks after the family rather than work, and Richard admitted he'd love it, but only if I were happy to not be the homemaker. While this is all aaaaaaaaages away it's good to know I have the option to have a carreer as well as the family.

Eeeeeek it's 10.22 and I have a nine o'clock lecture! Night folks, it's Claire sleepytime. Thanks for listening to my ranblings :)

2008-02-14T19:54:00.002Z

Helloooooooooo happy valentines day folks :) I got my special Richardbunny so I'm very happy :)
still good
My third and final exam was ok, not as good as the others but still good.
Neways that's all folks :)
Love you all xxxxxx

2008-02-13T11:37:00.002Z

Yay!!!! Richard is on his way!!!! I hav to leave in a moment to get a bus to pick him up. I was going to surprise him and meet him in preston but there aren't any trains that get me there in the right time. *breif pause to evict wasp from room and shut window. Bloody insects. Anyhoo it's the thought that counts.

The exams I've had so far, I've been well prepared for both and they've gone better than I thought they would. The hardest one is tomorrow so I'm going to find moments today to cram. There is a huge amount of info for it, far too much, but it should be ok.

Right I'd better toodle off now, see you soon folks!

2008-02-10T21:11:00.000Z

So how are we all? I'm thinking a quick blogg before I sit down to revise might help me relax. I'm more wound up about these end of module exams than any other this year, yet I'm far better prepared and actually doing more revision. I've been waking up and my brain immediatly starts revising. So the last couple of nights have been pretty lousy sleep wise. Exam number one is tomorrow, and it's the module I want to take next year so I need to pull my finger out. Luckily it's not till one so I can go to bed after Monster in Law (with more revision), reivise tomorrow and might do ok. I'll feel so much better once they're all done.

Richard is coming down on Wednesday, which is his brithday too, so I'm looking forward to that so much. He's got three whole days off, all of which are set aside for me. YAY! Remind me I need wrapping paper....

So anyway thats about it for me, nothing else new :)

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2008-02-08T09:36:00.000Z

Whilst I'm away folks, please clicky on my linky each day and give me more bunny people for m bunny city :)
All you do is click :)
Promise I'll stop pestering soon :)
Love you all and have a great weekend.

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2008-02-06T15:14:00.000Z

If you haven't already, please clicky the linky (daily) to give me more bunny people;

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Thanks folks :)

2008-02-03T22:07:00.000Z

Calender Girls is funny :) There's something about naked old W.I ladies thats pretty funny. The cast certainly helps, it's like Cranford, some of the best British actresses ever. Except Judi Dench, where's she got to in this film?

Anyway my weekend wasn't quite as busy as I'd planned, my hours at work got cancelled so I spent Saturday watching films adn trying to write lecture notes up. I made mum dig out Pillow Talk, (one of the BEST Doris Day films ever, and one of the first, and her first, screwball movie).

Once it got near six I tootled off to ASDA and picked my dear Richard up from work. Between 6pm Saturday and 5.30am Sunday there just isn't enough time. He's sent me home with a letter which I'm going to read in a mo, bless his cotton socks. I miss him already but we did have lots of fun, and next week we get THREE whole days together here :) His birthday is on the 13th, it's Valentines on the 14th and he argued the toss and got his normal days off on the 15th. YAY! I am excited already.
Richard is also going to sit down with his manger this week, and the deputy store manager an begin his transfer to the Lancaster ASDA. Apparently it can take up to three months, so it needs starting soon. At least they told us it took so long and didnt wait till one month before. I broke the news to mum as well so she can get used to the fact that regardless of what happens with his UCAS application, Richard IS moving to Lancaster come Spetember. It can't come soon enough!

It's hard to believe this is Week 4, and the last teaching week in my third module. It's flown by, but at least this week will be a little less hectic. I've got one more piece of coursework due in, which just needs me to figure out how to apply a line of best fit properly, and then I'm done. I have till after Easter holidays to do the 104 coursework but thanks to my friend Rachel I've got a copy of the coursework text which is no longer in print. It's a lovely book too, she orddered one and got sent two, but billed for one, so we're splitting the cost so we pay half each, (which is only fair if she's giving me a free copy).

Anyway I'm rather sleepy now so bedtime for me. Monday morning brings a 7.45am start. Nigth folks!

PS. apologies for any spelling mistakes, Blogger is being crap and not letting me spell check it.

2008-01-30T21:25:00.000Z

So when I last blogged it was the day before Richard came up, or something like that. Well he did come up and we had an absolute ball. As always :) My friend Hannah picked him up from the station and then came round in the evening, bringing her daughter Ebony with her. Ebony is gorgeous, and delighted Richard by giving him a huge hug on first sight. It's great to see Richard chatting to my friends and playing with a small child. He'll make a great dad one day. Just after my degree, it's not easy whilst as Hannah would tell you.
Although the lucky moose is appearing in Women's Own and a national newspaper AND she's been on an MTV show. It's pretty rare for girls to have a baby at 16 and make it to uni. She's pretty incredible. So glad she's my friend :)
This week has been pretty hard, I've missed Richard so much, but it's nearly weekend and I've got hours booked at work.

OOOOOOOO that reminds me. Last time I worked on the Counters I got chatting to one of Richards old friends, a girl called Lauren. He's know her for years but is a bit wary, he thinks she might fancy him or something. ANYWAY the BITCH asked him for his number yesterday and said she'd fix him up with one of her mates so he could have an affair. Richard gave her one of his manger friends phone numbers, and told me. I'm working on counters on Saturday so we shall see shan't we. Do you think I can slap her?

We FINALLY got out girlie meal on Monday. As many of us girls from Biology who could come came, and we had a lovely time. Well we did until people started being stingy with their share of the bill. Money brings out the worst in people, next time I think it gets split down the middle no questions. Some people just didn't get that we had to pay the service charge.
I've been having a few issues with one of Karen and Lisa's friends, Laurie, who for some reason came to the meal despite not being on our course. That of course wasn't a problem, but since she threw me out of my own kitchen and told me I needed contacts and highlights I have felt a little wary of her. She's put a couple of others peoples noses out of joint as well. The sad thing is I really like her, but she has a tendency to single out and be a bitch to the weak link. One must learn to cope, seen as Lisa and Karen are good friends of mine.

Neways that's about it for my week. Speak soon xxx

2008-01-25T09:44:00.000Z

YAY! It's Friday! It's 10.00am so in two and a half hours I get to see Richard :) He's coming down here this weekend and I am SO excited! My friend Hannah needs some nappies for her little girl so is going to take me to and from the station following our lecture. And once I've done getting ready I'm going to race up to the post office and to try and find a book that's in in the libary. If I can find my tutor as well I don't have to go to the tutorial this afternoon :) I love my tutor, Earthworm Guy :) He said it's OK to just pick my essay up not attend the tutorial because I'd be so late getting back from the station. Bless him :)

And I've just realised it's 10 and my lecture is at 11......right time to go methinks.

National Sad Day was not so sad

2008-01-21T22:33:00.000Z

Today has been National Sad Day but I wouldn't say it's been very sad. Exhausting yes but sad no. Mondays are always, for want of a better word, a bitch. Starting at 9 I have three hours of lectures followed by three hours of practical. Then another three hours to write up my lecture notes and make a start into the coursework for one module. In short I'm knackered. The silver lining is that I only have 2 lectures tomorrow and two afternoons free and I don't have to be up till 10 :) Woot!

My weekend was brilliant, I had no idea how much I'd missed Richard till I was trapped behind the deli at ASDA desperate to go and cuddle up to him and just talk all about my week. I'm missing him alot right now, probably cause I'm so tired, but I only have to wait till Friday as he has Friday and Saturday off he's coming here this weekend. YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!!! Can't wait! Is it nearly Friday yet??????

This week is probably going to be as busy as last week. I'm not planning on going into town really, I don't think I can afford the time off study, but I've got a girlie biology meal planned with everyone and my flatmate is having people round tomorrow night so I won't starve socially.

I wore my retainer last night for the first time in months, mainly because I've been holding my jaw so tense recently and wearing it encourages me not to. Fell asleep all OK but when I woke up I realised it wasn't in my mouth. Now it's way too big to swallow but I couldn't find the bugger in my bed anywhere. It showed up eventually but how it fell out of my mouth I don't know!

Well that's it for me, it's bed time :) Oh and guess what! It's the start of National Bunny Week today :)
love and hoppy rabbits, Claire

Excuse me have you seen a blowfish driving a sports car?

2008-01-17T23:28:00.000Z

As you may be able to tell I've been watching Torchwood using the BBC's new iplayer thing. Aside from stopping to load every few seconds at some points it's pretty good, certainly a bloody good idea.Thanks Mr. BBC :) It means I didn't miss the start of the new series, and how hot is James Masters looking? Very methinks*

The last week has been mental and exhausting. With exams on stupid inconvenient days I'm working much harder to try and learn and remember the material. I've done far more of my further reading than I normally do and being so busy means at least I'm not missing Richard. The modules themselves are pretty interesting still, all my extra work has been for one of them so far but I'm off to the library tomorrow to try and find a book for my coursework and another for a second piece. Due to my lecturer jetting off to the Antarctic we have a whopping 14 weeks to produce our practical write up. Nice but I'd rather it wasn't hanging around really. The book we need for it is no longer in print and amazon has one used copy priced at nearly £200! The book isn't even WORTH that much!
Our lecturer told us today the ecology center within the uni, (that is actually a national center but works in conjunction with us), takes on one student per year for work experience. It sounds really interesting so I'm planning on emailing the lecturer to show my interest. It would be perfect really, paid and within Lancaster Uni, so although I'd be on a gap year I wouldn't miss seeing friends of need to move again. I don't know if it's the right thing yet but it sounds good to me.

I'm off home tomorrow, can't wait to see Richard and with any luck a phone call tomorrow may turn up some hours on the deli department. My manager doesn't want me, which I think may be punishment for not working much over Christmas and asking last minuet again. Cross your fingers I can get some hours. The money isn't essential but would be great.
Neways if I'm to get up tomorrow I need to go to bed. That's if Adaware has finished running it's scan......well it has but it doesn't seem to want to delete the stuff it's found. Grrrr why are updated programs always so much more complicated????? HELP!

Love, Claire

*but not as hot as Richard....sorry it has to be said.

2008-01-14T21:38:00.000Z

Well I'm back in Lancaster, all unpacked and fully launched into the term :) It's looking like it will be a good one; we have one scary lecturer and we've got the module on Aquatic Biology this half, they had to swap it because it only have one lecturer and she's in Antarctica when its supposed to run. How cool is that? She is one of my favourite lecturers so far anyway, her description of what happens to certain protozoa out of water was hilarious.
Mondays are always my busiest day, three lectures and a three hour practical. I've managed to write up one set of notes this evening but I've had a massive headache so haven't done any since. It's going now so I'll do a little more whilst I watch the end of Signs before bed. And eat popcorn :) The microwavable kind.
It all helps not missing Richard, it's certainly weird without him. But it's the weekend soon :) And he's coming down for the 13th and 14th of February. But ohmigod two of my modules have decided to put their end of module exams on Valentines Day. *swears at evil tutors. Could be worse though, at least they're in the morning so I get them over and done with.
Oh dear I'm now absorbed in the film.......this doesn't bode well for my note making.
See you soon folks xxx

2008-01-12T21:53:00.000Z

Well tomorrow sees my return to Lancaster for another 10 weeks of study. I’m all packed up and keeping distracted so I don’t think about the fact I miss Richard already and have to wait another week before seeing my best friend and boyfriend again. I’ll be pretty busy the next couple of weeks, its straight back into the next set of three modules and seeing everyone again. I have missed everyone lots, especially my communal little flat people, it will be nice having them wander into my room randomly or meeting in the kitchen to cook dinner. I won’t mind having the work again either, it’s fun, and practices are always a laugh.
So Lancaster here I come :)

The Year Of A Million Dreams

2008-01-01T21:54:00.000Z

Well HAPPY NEW YEAR folks :)
I saw my new year in at Richards, which was brillaint. We have big plans this year, least of all moving to Lancaster. He spent this afternoon at mine for tea, and it was good to see him getting to know my parents a bit more. He fits perfectly into our family, he's seen the same tv shows as my parents and shares their sense of humour. And you can't fail to see how much he loves me :)

This year has been rather turbulent, (I suppose I should do the evaluation of the year like everyone), I've loved and lost, actually hated education in the form of AS Chemistry, changed my job, fallen madly in love again but this time with my soulmate, and usccessfully gone to uni on a course I enjoy. I've been bitterly depressed but found my way through the wilderness and returned to a more balanced form of myself. I've lost a few friends, one of whom I dearly would like back in my life, but I've made dozens more. I grew up enough to catch trains and make numerous changes all by myself, like the time I went down to Fluffys, all the way to London and back by myself. My spelling hasn't improved but who cares? I have a new fringe and have developed a sense of real style. I'm happy and loved.

So what would I like from this year? To pass my first year of uni, for Richard to be living with me in Lancaster and for us to be happily intergrated into my family. To get back the friends I've lost and to continue making new ones.

So have a happy new year folks, I hope it's your best yet.
Love Claire xxxx

Cause Without Love It Don't Mean A Thing

2007-12-29T21:47:00.000Z

Mannn if I wasn’t so small I’d be at Richard right now. His stupid flatmate Ruth broke her key in the front door yesterday, and didn’t think to try and get it sorted till it was later. So the only way into his house is over a very tall fence. This is all well and good if you’ve got a rather tall and handsome boyfriend to help you over it, but on a Sunday morning I haven’t got a tall and handsome boyfriend because he’s at work. So instead I’m going round tomorrow after he’s worked to be thrown over the fence and we needn’t fret about leaving the house till New Years Day when we come to mine for tea. *sulks about being small.

It has been a rather terrible day, the kind where you wonder why you got out of bed. I’ve been called fat by my Nanna, told by my sister that she can’t wait for me to be back at uni and had parents that seriously take each other for granted. I’ve felt so strained by the fractions in their marriage today it’s untrue. A little bit of communication wouldn’t go amiss. *makes note to LISTEN to what Richard says when married and assure he does the same.

So in short the highlight of today was buying a nice new pair of black jeans and a pair of brown smarter ones from New Look because I found a hole in one of my jeans yesterday.
Oooo and I figured out where to get the bicycle from in pokemon diamond…a large DUH moment.

Unlimited Rice Pudding

2007-12-26T22:41:00.001Z

Well heeeelllooooooooooooooooooooo people! How are we all? Did everyone have good Christmases? I did. I can categorically say this has been the best and most special Christmas ever. I’ve been spoilt rotten by Richard, a Tiffany floating heart Elsa Perretti necklace and some Angel perfume. I was very very lucky. And spoilt :)

Spent most of today lounging in bed or on the sofa watching various Darlek related Doctor Who’s, specifically for fans the last one that Davros is in in the old series and the last one Eccleston did where he regenerates. We’d watched the Christmas special yesterday, which was good but not overwhelming. Very Poseidon, but rather lacking in series plotlines being set up. The next series clips were brilliant, apparently the Ant People, for want of a better name, are back :)

Without meaning to be sickeningly happy, especially when I know there are plenty of people out there struggling to keep their heads above water, but I am ridiculously happy and loved up. I have found the most wonderful person I ever thought possible and I so can’t wait to start a proper life together. The aim is to be living in Lancaster by September, and I can’t wait. How did I get so lucky suddenly?

Did anyone see Ballet Shoes? Wasn’t it wonderful? Superb acting and I love the plot. Emma Watson is certainly developing into a fine actress, who wasn’t greatly type cast, apparently she can act other roles.

So happy :)

Merry Christmas

2007-12-25T12:43:00.000Z

Happy Christmas to all you wonderful people!

So far Best.Christmas.Ever :)

May All Your Christmases Be Merry And Bright

2007-12-24T22:31:00.000Z

Just in case I don't get time to say it tomorrow I hope everyone has a wonderful day tomorrow and that you get everything you want, be it a present or something more. I know I've already got everything I could ask for for christmas even before the day arrives. I'm lucky. I hope you all are too.

I’ll Give It To Someone Special, Who’ll Give Me Something In Return

2007-12-23T22:43:00.000Z

Last Christmas, Wham

So who’s ready for Christmas? I’m just about ready I thinks, all my presents are wrapped, aside one for Richard which I’m hoping will arrive tomorrow. If not it’ll be ok. :)I’m looking forward to Christmas a lot this year, it’s the first one I’ll be splitting with someone other than my family, and I’m just well…excited and happy.
I’ve managed to see Richard pretty much everyday, even if it’s only whilst working. As for work, JEESE it’s been busy. Why is it the moment you put on the uniform you become invisible to customers? Yeah that’s right mate, stand in front of a pallet full of frozen food that can’t stop so easy, it will hurt if it hits you! Ah well I’ve been lucky and only worked for three days, my friend Katie has done every day since she got back, poor thing.

OOOO and a note to my nasty “I don’t like the way you spell stuff but I’ll read your blog anyway just so I can leave a bitchy message”, the only word that’s spelt wrong so far according to Word is blog, mainly because it isn’t in the dictionary. Honestly haven’t you got anything better to do than be nasty about my spelling abilities? Trying to make me feel bad because of something I’m not so good at is just, well pathetic, almost as pathetic as not leaving your name. So next time I’ll be naming and shaming you because I know where you live…..so to speak. Thank you magic little stats counter :)

Moving on, I kinda miss uni, something I know a lot of students are feeling. Mainly the lack of independence, which was a little depressing at first, but now I’m well rested I’m feeling fine. Slowly getting through the endless tasks I seem to have which are more to do with tidying my room or scraping booking. But in general I like my life and am very happy. Think I need some new glasses but that’s about it. Now I’m going to go to bed and be happy there :) Merry Christmas folks.

Haven’t I done well Mr. Nasty Spelling Commenter, a whole blog and no spelling errors? And I’ve managed to not babble on about how loved up I am. We’ll save that for the conversations I have with myself and my teddy

Three O'Clock In The Morning, Looks Like It's Gonna Be Another Sleepless Night

2007-12-15T21:39:00.000Z

Talking In Your Sleep, Crystal Gayle

Sorry I haven't blogged in aaaaaages but I've been ridiculously busy. And stressed. Which I still am. Now I'm home there seems to be an endless list of jobs I need to do and the lack of personal space is already driving me crazy. Only four weeks of it left. If I'm honest I love uni so much I didn't really want to go home. I miss being in my room with the door propped open so people can wander in at leisure. Naturally if I could transplant Richard to Lancaster it would be perfect :)

Thansk for all your wonderful comments on my last blogg, things with my parents are now back to normal. Mainly cause I told them Richard and I had decieded to withdraw our engagment. We haven't but it's frustrating I can't make my own choices. On the upside my parents like him again and seem to have accepted it's a mature relationship.

The last week or so at uni has been pretty good even if it involved exam stress. Saying goodbye was hard, we all wandered from house to house to say goodbye on Thursday. Karen came over and watched films with Craig, Hannah, Dan and me. With one day left we decieded to pull something of an all nighter but given my need to eigth hours sleep I cracked and went to bed at four (in the morning).

Thats about it for me folks I shall blogg again soon I hope. Hope everyones well and that no one feels the urge to leave me a spelling correction as a comment. Seriously primary school teacher is soooooooo last season.
Love and huggles Claire xxx

2007-11-21T20:10:00.000Z

I need some help and advice people.
My parents found out Richard and I are engaged ths weekend. They didn't take it well. Tonight I was issued with 2 choices;
1) Call off the enagegment and re-do it all once I've graduated
2) Don't call it off, apparently be selfish, and risk alienating my family.

Apparently the option to leave things as they are and get married post degree isn't allowed. So apparently what I want isn't really being considered.

What exactly do I do? I don't think I'm even being given a choice but there you go. Help!

How You Always Come Back up Again And It’s So Cool

2007-11-08T13:02:00.000Z

Deep Down Low, Chely Wright

Hellooooo still alive J Been very busy thanks to the end of Module exams, which are all done now so once I’ve handed in my poster I’m off home. Get a FULL day with Richard tomorrow, a rarity we haven’t achieved since I started at Lancaster.

So many people seemed to have guessed correctly, yep Richard and I are now officially engaged, (just don’t tell my parents yet!). If you want to split hairs we’ve been engaged since before I started uni, he proposed before I came away. But given we’d been talking marriage since pretty much day one it wasn’t a real surprise. He finally bought me a ring the other week which I am loving wearing. He did an amazing job picking one out, it’s beautiful. We’re very very happy together, but it’s still weird during the week when I’m here. Don’t get me wrong, I love this place, but I really want to share it with Richard.

So my life the last week has been flitting home to see Richard and back here to work my butt off. The course is going really well, Biological Sciences is defiantly the course for me, and I’m making friends daily. Today’s new friend was the guy in Diggles who talked to me about the Muppets for ages. Seriously though, we pick more people up each morning as we walk to lectures, its great! And we all went out as a big girlie group the last week, which was a huge amount of fun. I’m very much a social person, so a big group of lovely girls to hang around with is perfect. What still touches me is how we all remember things, like all of them remembered Richard was meeting my parents this weekend, so they ALL asked how it went.

It went brilliantly for those who didn’t know. He made a seriously good impression, both were impressed with his intelligence and the fact he can make eye contact during conversation, a big trust factor for both my parents. I was seriously proud of him, it can’t have been easy but I think they’re resting easy knowing he’s not a creepy cradle snatcher.

Anyway I have to hover my room and finish packing my bag…all in 40mins! Hope life is good for all my lovely readers too! Loving you lots J Thanks for sticking with me during my depression, I’m pretty much off the pills and I’m happier than I’ve ever been.

That Dimond Sparkled In The Band

2007-10-29T07:49:00.000Z

Without Love, Mindy McCreedy
First person to guess what this means wins a prise. Fluffy and Hutters can't play though, you already know :)

Love To Love You Like You Do Me

2007-10-25T22:26:00.000+01:00

Love To Love You, The Corrs

Heya! I'm still alive and still very settled into my life and routine here. It's hard work, I've been so busy with all the work and extra note making my course requires but now I'm on top of the work and can relax a little bit. I'm in a good position with my remaing bits of coursework too, theres one to hand in tomorrow and another I've got all but one little piece of information so thats nearly sorted. We're still all hating the Maths related lecture too but we're halfway through that. I'm very pleased with the 53/70 mark for the first piece of coursework for it too, as it's the hardest module by far every little helps.

Things are exciting too, my friend Hannah is involved with making a documentary for MTV and they've been filming some of our lectures and stuff. Yesterday she text me asking if I'd help her out with one of the things for it. So today the two of us sat in The Venue cafe having fizzy apple juice and chatting whilst 2 women filmed us. It was brillaint, I managed to ignore the cameras and just chatted away to Hannah as naturally as she chatted to me. It'll be aired in a few months or something and when Hannah gets a copy of it we're going to have a grand screening at her little flat. :)
Hannah is amazing. Seriously she's like Supergirl. She's here with her 2 year old daughter, Ebony and it's like, wow, how is she doing it? Her flat flooded and they've rehoused her in some soon-to-be-demolished blocks that aren't at all suitable for a young child, so she's now commuting from Blackpool where her finace is. She burst into tears in the practicle on Monday because of the stress, and I comforted her and I know she's feeling better know. I don't think she really gets that she is really amazing to come here, do a VERY hard degree AND have a 2 year old. Round of applause for Hannah please!

Things with Richard are still amazing. We still miss each other loads, but this week has been easier than last was, I really struggled last week but I plodded on. I'm majorly excited about this weekend too. I can't decied whether to go into work or to go to Manchester shopping and come back and cook Richard a proper tea. He is after all working his ass off to earn money to move here. Sometimes I dont think I'm doing enough for us but he's reassurred me I am so all is well. Neways it'd bedtime. Night all!

When?

2007-10-09T11:35:00.000+01:00

12.00 till 1.00 Biology 111 lecture
1.00 till 2.00 Biology 121 lecture
2.00 till 6.00 Biology 121 practicle

Ok guys, when are we supposed to eat??????

Afraid Of Feeling Nothing, No Bees or Butterflies

2007-10-08T10:17:00.000+01:00

Home, Sheryl Crow

Dudes I just had my first lecture :) Go me. I have yet another one at errrmmmmm, 11, so need to leave soon. It was a good lecture and I may be able to swing my Friday afternoon practicle so I finish at 4 o'clock. Which makes life sooooo much easier for going home at weekends.

Home? Yep, I'm going home at weekends. I went home last weekend and it was good. I didn't realise just how much I'd missed Richard until I saw him. I ended up working on Saturday, (a good excuse to come home), which meant we got the full day together and the evening too. He's still very unhappy at ASDA, so he's off to the job shop yet again today. I'm hopefull he'll find something with better pay, he'll love it here. The sooner he saves up the sooner we're together in Lancaster.

In terms of uni I think I'm ready this year. Lancaster feels totally like home, my flat mates are brilliant, as are the people I've met from other courses and through other things. Tonight or tomorrow night I'm supposed to be going to the ballroom dancing taster sessions...eeep! But I also have a ridiculous amount of tidying up to do. My room is still not organised just as it should be.

Oh this will make you laugh. I spent an hour looking for my keys last night. I let myself into my room and put them down, only not to be able to find them. Where were they? Hidden in a pocket in my jeans I didn't know I had.
*bangs head on wall

Don't Wanna Be All By Myself

2007-09-27T22:10:00.000+01:00

All By Myself, Celine Dion

So I have 2 days before I go to Lancaster. I'm not looking forward to it. Yes I'm looking forward to my own space, and the independacne I had during my parents holiday, and I'm eagerish to do a degree, but the problem is simple. I don't want to leave Richard.
We've talked it round and round, and there's no way he's letting me drop out, as much as he wants me to be around, he isn't allowing himself to be that selfish. So after a lot of tears and talking a desison was reached. At some point in the future Richard will move to Lancaster. He can transfer to ASDA there untill he finds a job he's happier with. Fiancially from my research we'd have to live together to be able to afford rent. There an awful lot to think about, least of all finding a place in Lancaster and giving his current housemate fair warning. But it will happen. It gives me strength, he's prepared to give up so much to be with me. In return I have to try and make the uni thing work until we're together. Which isn't going to be easy, but at least I know being alone in Lancaster isn't a permanant feature of my life.

Hello Moto

2007-09-23T13:16:00.000+01:00

Someone just rang my mobile. The number came up as anonomous but no one spoke when i answered it. So I put the phone down and ignored it when they rang back. How odd.

Also odd was I got a text off Liz this morning, the blanket kind when you're mass inviting people to something. Chrish and her are planning a meal together with everyone and the text was to find out who was free. She even polietly replied when I text back to say I'd rather it wasn't at a Chinese but I'd cope if nowhere else was possible. Maybe the frost is starting to thaw? I was glad she text me, and replied nicely.

Anyhooo I shall stop painting this unicorn and go cause we're going to see my grandparents before I go away next weekend. Then I'm going to Richards! Yay!

If I Had A Little Money

2007-09-19T22:04:00.000+01:00

Money, Money, Money, ABBA

I'm still alive just super busy juggling a combination of work, social life, boyfriend and the millions of pre-uni jobs I have to do. I get some done and shorten the list only for it to massivly grow again. Garrrrrrr

Things with Richard are still amazing, we're getting along brilliantly. He's hasd alot of stress at work this last fortnight which we've tackled together. I pushed him to see a doctor following what appeared to be anxiety attacks and pains in his chest. It's become very clear alot of the staff are out to bully him or get him into trouble as much as possible before he moves departments. It has kinda cut out honeymoon period short, but it's nice to be in a kind of relationship where you can lean on each other and tackle things together. I know he's so grateful for my presence and is relieved he hasn't driven me away. I'm hoping things will settle once he's moved departments, because I'm not going to be so easy to get to once I'm in Lancaster.

As for Uni, I'm not sure what the feelings are there. I'm desperate for the space and freedom from my parents. However loving they are I miss the freedom I had whilst they were away. But there's also the aspect that rigth here right now I like my life. It's fine the way it is. I guess I can only try.
It is turning into an expensive thing. Aside from the usual £200+ that Lancaster has had out of me for lord knows what I've had to pay out my insurance tonight and I suspect there is more to come. I'll be glad when it's pay day next week.

Right what's next on the job list? Oh good, sleep :)

If It Makes You Happy, It Can’t Be That Bad

2007-09-11T09:56:00.000+01:00

If It Makes You Happy, Sheryl Crow

Hey
I have a happy feel good blogg planned for sometime soon, don’t fret folks, this isn’t a slip back into the Misery Bloggs of a few months ago. But right now I’m feeling pretty low. In short my Dad seems depressed, he’s not happy at work, (and not happy means he’s even more unhappy than normal, which is a lot unhappy), pissed off with my Nanna more than usual, and possibly a little worried about me or just dealing with Mums usual childish reaction. So Dad’s depressed and all quiet and I know he doesn’t want to talk to me about it really.

Mum, well Mum is doing her usual Boyfriend Routine where she disapproves of the fact I have one so makes it BLOODY PLAIN. CAN YOU HEAR THAT? THAT’S WHAT IT FEELS LIKE. She’s frosty, short with me and just making it plain she doesn’t like me being with someone again. Oh and NOW she gets to throw the depression into it. “You’re jumping in way too fast and your STILL on medication from the last debacle”. Yeah mum, you have to take antidepressants for about 6 months after you start feeling better, and guess what I FEEL BETTER.

Things with Richard, are well, amazing. I’m not about to repeat what’s been said between us this weekend but trust me, this relationship was not a mistake.

I’m trying to be patient and understanding with my parents. Dad I can kinda understand, especially now I’ve had depression. But Mum, it’s just driving another wedge between us. When she did her disapproving act about Dom I stopped wanting to talk to her, and we drifted apart a little. Rather than airing her opinion and then moving on I have 3 more weeks of this to cope with. And it’s so depressing. I’m trying to understand but once again I feel like nothing I do is ever good enough. And I feel very very depressed. I’m going to Richards for three hours before work, it’s worth the agro off Mum once she finds out, I can’t stand to be in this house all day with her.

The depression will clear once I’ve spoken to Richard, but then I have to come home and feel like crap for being so happy. It isn’t right that is it? Yes they’re worried, but making me feel like crap? Because I’m happy? Not right. Ever.

You Gotta Talk To The One That Made You, Talk To The One Who Understands

2007-09-06T22:31:00.000+01:00

Light In Your Eyes, Sheryl Crow

Well it’s been an interesting last few days. There’s been lots of Richard time, often a few hours here or there because one of us is pretty much always working. Aside from Monday, Monday we were both off so spent the day together. *grins broadly. That was a lot of fun. I love the fact that 10 seconds in his company leaves me on cloud nine, and given the grin on his face he feels the same.

Monday was also the day I finally broached the issue of Richard and I with my Dad after a talk with Mum that morning that contained the sentence “if you don’t watch it you’ll be out on your rear”. Quite frightening for me. Anyway after spending my day with Richard I decided to talk to Dad. He is so ok with it all it isn’t true. He has no problems with the age difference at all and we had a nice chat. Mum is going to take some time to get used to the situation, and it’ll help if I can prove I’ll be ok at uni. Again it helps Richard is determined to come and see me, it’s not an if he comes apparently it’s a when. He’s picking up overtime for the “Coming to see you” fund already.

Yesterday I saw Zena for what could be the last time for a loooooong time as she’s doing an exchange in Detroit this year. She may be leaving on Monday if her passport arrives by tomorrow. Chrish, Zena and I went to Manchester to do some shopping, a last girlie shopping trip, but I seriously want to see her one more time before she goes. It’s heartbreaking to know she’s leaving. I know once we’ve got addresses sorted we’ll write, but it still pains me to see her go. She will of course love it, which makes it all worthwhile. I’ll make her a scarf for Christmas methinks.

Sunday I FINNALY saw Luke. We had a long overdue chat about everything, there’s a fair bit of misunderstandings on both sides but it’s all been resolved nicely. We’re back on track, and went to see Rush Hour3. I am glad things are good between us, and we had a huge laugh as we always do.

Attempts to cut down on hours at work have failed miserably. I’ve somehow gained another 18 hours this week, plus my 15 on frozen. And I’ve got another 30 next week. Remind me NOT to ask for overtime next week, I seriously need to chill a bit before uni. Not to mention tidy my room STILL

What’s Your Silver Lining?

2007-09-02T16:59:00.000+01:00

One Heart, Celine Dion

Hello folks, long time no blogg :) My bad.

So where have I been. Well working my little tush off as a frozen monkey and counters lady for the last couple of weeks as always. My parents have been away so I’ve been living quite literally at Richards house. It’s been amazing. We’ve fitted into the routine in perfect harmony, no issues or anything. The highlight of the last 2 weeks was the other night when I kissed him goodbye before leaving to go and prepare tea at his whilst he worked. It ran something like this;

Me; See you later honey
Richard; Love you
*dramatic pause in which we both tried to work out if he really had just said that!
Me; Did you just say what I think you said……?
Richard; Yes….No…..I’m doing a Chandler *is flustered
Me; I love you too

I wasn’t expecting to be saying I love you so soon, neither was he, we’d already established it was probably gonna be a while before either of us felt that. But it happened; it came from the heart, without meaning to. And I’m so glad he said it. And I know he doesn’t regret it either.

So aside from being on cloud nine I have blitzed my bedroom, a process that is still happening. Lots of stuff is either gone, going or on ebay. I’m still knitting my bag for uni, which is about half done knitting wise. My plan is to cut down my hours the next month because I have so much still to do before going. Oh, and I’m into Cartmel Collage, land of the bunnies. House 5, Flat something-or-other, Thirlmere. It’s great. All my forms and stuff have been filled in ready to go back to them.

In short I am happy again. Back to who I was and who I’m supposed to be. The pain is still there when I think about Dom. But I don’t anymore, because I don’t need to. Richard is here to support me, and I know he will treat me the way I deserve to. He knows the Best Damn Thing when he sees it. Fate moves in mysterious ways.

You Held My Hand And Walked Me Home I Know, You Gave Me A Kiss It Went Something Like This It Made Me Go Oh Oh

2007-08-17T22:25:00.001+01:00

Don’t Tell Me, Avril Lavigne

Well after a rather busy week I’ve managed to get a day off. It was spent sorting out the odd form and posting the odd ebay parcel. I managed to sneak a trip to ASDA in, during which my mum briefly met Richard, and hasn’t expressed any extreme dislike, and didn’t seem to mind lots when I stayed behind to wait until he could have a break. We then spent a lovely 15 minuets being gawped at in the staff canteen, we’re not obvious that we’re now together, but the body language says it all. The number of staff that openly sit and stare at us is unbelievable, like we’re a freak show! The managers are worse, Richards had an huge amount of “funny” comments when he’s been on a break alone. It’s like, err hello Mr Managers do you think YOU could get a 19 year old girlfriend? I don’t THINK so.
I was even more upset and angry when he text me saying our manager, Danny, had laid into him before going home for me coming down this afternoon. I stood there chatting to him whilst he worked away, it was very professional, we always are when on the shop floor, (well unless it’s 9 o’clock on the biscuit isle……), but it makes me so angry. We were doing nothing wrong. The sooner he goes the better.

Been shopping briefly this week, but mainly it’s been all about work. Pretty much solidly, long shifts too. Although I had the delight of Richard walking to and from work to see me three times on Tuesday, made the lonesome frozen shift well worth it :) He got soaked three times. But he did come back and walk me to the bus, I don’t like catching it at 10.20 at night.

Yeah, you may have gathered I’m seeing Richard now. To hell with the age difference, he treats me better than anyone ever has. We’re talking completely smitten, absolutely adoring me. And I’m becoming increasingly smitten back.

OOOO and thanks to the wonder of Facebook I’ve made TWO new friends at Lancaster, brilliant eh? As for results day yesterday, I haven’t gotten my results yet, didn’t want to go and get them, they’re not in the paper so I’m just hoping they will be posted to me.

It Was Long Ago And It Was Far Away, Oh God It Seems So Very Far

2007-08-13T22:49:00.000+01:00

Objects In The Review Mirror May Appear Closer Than They Are, Meat Loaf

Well my very early start turned out to be quite good really, working from 7 until 2 does give me a little more day to work with afterwards. Today I was on the Deli, which started out quite badly. The people there didn’t exactly give me clear instructions to begin with. For example if you tell me to put fresh bowls out I will, but I won’t transfer the contents of them from old bowl to new bowl unless you say so. Things picked up later, I got the hang of things like wrapping the pies and stuff, and using the scales. It’s good to learn something new.
I had dinner again with Richard and then we ran my errands, (which was mainly posting stuff), before wandering up to the park to look at the bunnies that live there. Except there aren’t any rabbits there anymore, they’ve been moved for some reason. He said they’d gone on holiday but I’m still miffed. We did have fun feeding some pigeons flapjack and squashed MilkyWay. It was hilarious, the speed they moved when you threw stuff was impressive. We spent along time watching them closely and deciding there was a security guard one who seemed intent on checking out my bag, one with UGG boots on (feathery feet), and a rather bossy one. Plus the slow one that always gets left behind and some pretty brown ones. As well as the odd inter-breed bird.

I’m feeling particularly lonely again. The only people I see are those I work with, and as much as Richard is lovely, he doesn’t quite fill the void. Yeah I know, I’ll make friends at uni, but that doesn’t help me in the mean time does it? I managed to plan something with Luke for Sunday only for him to blow me off, so that sucked ass. And whenever I try and suggest something to someone all I get is “I’m tired”. Well so am I. *grumbles.

I do apologise, I haven’t been sleeping too well. Herbal sleep pills it is for me tonight. It makes me terribly whiny when I don’t get enough sleep.

Put Your Heart In My Hands

2007-08-12T22:03:00.000+01:00

I'd Lie For You, Meat Loaf

I thought I’d blogg before I start another hugely busy week. All I seem to do is work, but at least I’m being paid and it’s fun. We may have got our manager under control currently; he was being exceptionally nice to us all on Saturday, frightening but most likely the result of a bollocking, (to be blunt). We encouraged it, all of us were very helpful and worked much harder, it made sense to encourage it even further.
I’ve dealt with the massive amount of mail I seem to have received today. A replacement drivers license has been ordered, and my NUS card is renewed too. Various bank type forms have also been done. Then a million things have been filed. Now all I need to do is get the shredder out.
I should go really, I’m up at HALF FIVE tomorrow to do some overtime on the Counters department. Then I have lunch with Richard again, (*grins), then I’m coming home to sleep!
Ooooo and I finished Harry Potter. It was good. Now I’m reading Prisoner of Askaban again.

Turn The Radio On, To Some Sad Country Song. Those Guys What They Play, Know Just What To Say.

2007-07-30T22:41:00.000+01:00

I’m the voice you never listen too,
And I had to break your heart to make you see,
That He’s the one who will be missing you,
And you’ll only miss the man that you wanted him to be
Shut Up and Drive, Chely Wright (Yep folks I'm back on the country!)

*potential spoiler if you haven’t read past Chapter 7 of Harry Potter but I assume everyone has.

Well today was an odd day. Odd in the sense it was neither a work day nor a day off. I wasn’t in till four, so got to wander down to Tesco with mum for odds and ends. I wore my maxi dress and managed to look like a gypsy reject. Not a bad look really, my dress is lovely, I’ve been watching it for weeks in ASDA waiting for a reduction, and it finally happened last weekend. It’s got a lovely old fashion print on it and looks lovely. *happy face. The trip also turned up Jess, who I had a lovely chat with. We arranged to meet for a brew next week sometime, and it was a relief to know that despite a lack of contact between us, we’re still friends. Liz also arrived just as I did, which left me feeling wound up and panicky for a long time, until I was sure she was gone really. The fact that still happens confirms leaving cleaning was not a mistake.

I have decided to try and build some bridges with some people. I messaged Luke on Facebook, and although he claims it’s my fault for not texting him it looks like we’ll be seeing each other eventually. I saw Jess which saved me a text, but I must do so later this week. Spoke to Chrish online, and again there are plans to meet for lunch at some point this week. There are two more people I would really like back in my life, but well, I don’t know what else to say there. They know who they are I guess.

Had my first review at work, which went rather well, well as well as can be expected with a manager who’s an idiot. He’s going to have a problem tomorrow, there is no one in for tomorrow. And none of us are willing to come in. I have plans, Richard is so peed off with the manager he won’t come in from his holiday, and they’ll be too afraid to ring Jimmy. Methinks something will be hitting the fan.

I finally started Harry Potter. I got very desperate for some relief from the stuff in my head last night and decided to give it a shot. It’s not as heavy going as Northanger Abbey, and with a faster moving plot so it was easier to force myself to focus. So I got an hours blessed relief from my thoughts aside from the bit where the think Mad Eye is dead…..*cries.

The Traffic In My Brain’s Driving Me Insane

2007-07-28T23:04:00.000+01:00

The Getaway, Hilary Duff

I’ve had a better day today. Well I did once I got to work anyway. My manager was off, which was naturally meant a more relaxed atmosphere, especially seen as he seems to have taken a real dislike to me. What made it such an awesome day was Richard decided to come in to work. He’s booked the week off as a holiday, but we knew yesterday there would be loads of stuff, and it would need more than just me. He freely admitted at the end of the day he’d had far more fun at work with me than he would have done at home, AND we’d done a massive amount of work. We had an absolute ball. At one point we were just sat in the lift going up and down and up and down. All well and good till we were sat at the Ground floor and someone called the lift up to the First. It was hilarious! Then we spent about half an hour in the main delivery freezer sorting all the comps and stuff out, and boy was it cold. We lost the feeling in numerous places that there should be feeling, but it looked amazingly good once we’d done and we were so proud. I just wish either of us knew what happened to those apple turnovers that had been dumped in our freezer….I picked them up and slug them on our flatbed to return to the right departments damages later and they mysteriously vanished. Hmmm oddness indeed.

I’m off again tomorrow. One of my only days off this week, the only other is Tuesday. It sucks. I have nothing to do tomorrow beyond the usual family trip to ASDA. Work may sometimes be depressing and boring but its better than being sat in front of my laptop all day feeling lonely. I used to love my weekends, but now my days off are just, well empty. Yeah, get a hobby. I know. But that’s not people is it? Yeah I know, it’ll sort itself out come uni, but that is still 2 plus months off. Fact is, I can’t think of a single reason to actually get up tomorrow.

Oh, thanks to the brilliance of Helena the thing with the Halifax appears to be sorted. It was, as I suspected, spam, but I still emailed the Halifax to check, mainly because my Dad will whine if I don’t. With having my bank card stolen not so very long ago I’m pretty wary of stuff like that.

When I Got Last In Fantasies And Cartoon Lands Of Mysteries

2007-07-27T22:12:00.000+01:00

Innocent Eyes, Delta Goodrem

Sooo I appear to have sorted out my Hours Issue at work. My manager was cruel enough to give me just 7 ½ hours next week. I stood my ground and yet again pestered for more hours but it wasn’t looking likely. Until I realised that my wage slip says I’m contracted for 15 hours work. Words with my manger followed. He seemed convinced that because I’m only Seasonal he didn’t have to give me the hours my contract says I’m entitled too. That seemed odd to me, surely a contract is a contract? He said he would find out. His sudden foul mood was later explained by his discovery that yes, if my contract says 15 hours he has to give me 15 hours.
He came back to me yesterday pretending to have found me loads next week. Guess how he found them? He discovered that one of the staff is off next week, he’d forgotten despite signing of for the holiday about 2 weeks ago. At least I have lots of hours next week.

Oh and get this. He said to one of my co-workers today he can’t stand Richard, (another frozen monkey), and me and think we’re both lazy and have no respect for him. Ok, if I was lazy I wouldn’t be happily coming in whenever the hell he likes and working my ass off. As for no respect for my manger? Well I don’t anymore. Not if he’s slagging me off to a co-worker. That is the height of unprofessional.

Today was my day off. To be completely honest there was actually no point in it at all, I may as well been at work. Mum literally yelled me out of bed for no good reason this morning and it quickly became apparent that my few friends were either working or had no interest in seeing me. I managed to do some work on my peacock design but nothing amazing. I just wasn’t in the mood for any of it. I mused over starting Harry Potter, but I find it impossible to focus on books these days, I can’t lose myself in a world of fantasy anymore. Hell, I used to love reading, don’t get me wrong, there’s a STACK of reading awards somewhere in my mums’ wardrobe. I just can’t seem to do it anymore. Harry Potter will come to Lancaster though, I’m sure it will be read then. This evening I feel I’ve had an argument with someone and well, am trying not to feel like all boys are just designed to mess with my head. They are probably not, but I don’t think I can deal so well with being jerked around. Being lead to believe one thing then having the carpet ripped out from under my feet.

On a good note, it appears I have managed to get myself a student account with NatWest, which is great as they offer a free 5 year railcard. I am a bit worried by the email I got from the Halifax saying they’d detected an attempt to access my online account .I don’t have any accounts with them….oooohh dear. Methinks a trip to the bank is needed.
Looking forward to work tomorrow. I have five hours with Richard, which should be a ball. It was the other day.

Spider Pig Spider Pig....

2007-07-27T13:47:00.001+01:00

Apparently this is me as a Simpson.....funkydory!

The Unicorn; Why It Always Has A Headache

2007-07-24T23:08:00.000+01:00

Henry titled tonights blogg. I don't at any point answer that question in my blogg.

Subtitled by Katie-Jane;
"Don't save me, don't save me because I don't care" Saviour, 30Seconds to Mars

Had a busy day today. I rang the student loans people to ask why my parents haven’t had their P60’s back, only to be told that was my local education authority’s job. At least SLC were really helpful and gave me Lancashire’s LEA number. Apparently there’s a 4-6 week backlog of papers and stuff so my parents can stop worrying.
Then I filled out the forms for my student account with the NatWest, and spent most of the day trying to find the letter from UCAS offering me my unconditional offer. In the end I gave up and sent the offer letter from Lancaster which is apparently just as good.
I also changed my tariff on Orange so I get 300 free texts whenever I top up by £10, which saves me changing to O2 to get the same deal. Means my Dad can’t moan that I won’t be one of his “magic numbers” anymore. He didn’t seem to understand that that doesn’t benefit me at all, but changing networks would. Anyway I have been saved a lot of trouble by the wonderful Katie-Jane who discovered Orange do the same deal.

Christine and Joanne came up today. We watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire and picked the odd fault with it. We had plenty to catch up on and walked to Tesco so I could post my mail and we could get some fresh air. Joanne made friends with a random cat who seemed determined to come home with us a one point.
What was sad for me is watching Christine. She suffers from some illness with the word palsy in its name. it affects her nerves and muscles so they contract and kinda freak out causing her to twitch and her body to contort. She wasn’t supposed to develop it until her 40’s but a fall whilst at uni has brought it on. It’s awful watching someone you care for so much in that kind of pain and be so frustrated because when she’s in a spasm there’s nothing you can do. It’s hard to ignore but I’ve found it best to check if she needs anything or I can do anything then carry on as if she’s fine, which she seems to appreciate. My mum hadn’t until today witnessed it, so found it a little upsetting. It’s even worse because she’s had so much pain in her life; she was born with twisted hips/feey, and bullied into terrible depression when she moved away from where I live. And even her bloody girlfriend is a childish little cow. Well I just don’t think she good enough for my Christine but you know, I may be biased there…

Tomorrow is going to be interesting I think. My manager has got me on for only one day next week. Queue fireworks on my part when I found out, and lots of tears. Never mind one day doesn’t even cover my contracted hours but its just bloody ridiculous. I’ve spoken to my co-worker who’s in tomorrow and we have numerous plans of attack. One is he will drop some of his hours so I can take them, and if worst comes to worst we speak to the Union women as my contract won’t be met. You’d think my manager would be glad to have a hard working employee who WANTS to work. I know he’s being pressured as all the departments are to cut down hours but one day a week? Get serious mate!

Toll A Bell For The Brohen Hearted

2007-07-21T21:22:00.000+01:00

Busy few days, mainly work and other stuff. I’ve seen Harry Potter twice, it is amazing. Much better than the book, mainly because Harry comes across not so much as a moody pain in the ass but more as someone with Lord V inside his head. I’m also totally in love with the dress sense some of the actresses have, that Luna Lovegood has got style!

I’ve continued the whole drawing thing. The actual knitting of the bag is progressing slowly, but it does look like we’ll need more wool than we first thought. Shoot. Anyway I seem to have cracked the difficult bit and got to grips with peacocks. Lookey;

Some days I feel so numb and empty

And those would be the good days for me

Nothing gets to me now

Unless I'm thinking of how

The future ain't what it used to be

Meat Loaf, The Future Ain't What It Used To Be

Just Let Me Live my Life…..Freak Out, Let It Go

2007-07-18T22:21:00.000+01:00

Freak Out, Avril Lavigne

Huston we have wool!

I’ve spent forever over the last couple of weeks looking for wool to make a bag with. I saw one at the local craft fair and mum suggested rather than buy it I could make it myself. Apparently it would be cheaper. Well cheaper, no, the wool was about £4.50 a ball, and we bought 4, with the possibility we’ll need more, and we’ve got buses to about a million different places to get hold of the right wool. However we have it, it’s kind of slate grey/teal with yellow, orange, blue, purple, pink and red mixed it. It screams peacock at the inner artist. Mum and I started it this afternoon; it’ll be a joint project, easy for me because it’s just straight knitting and it’s looking good already.

In a bid to help myself, because yes people, believe it or not I am trying not to just sit here and fester, I got out my sketchbook and found some peacock pictures and have begun working on a stylised image to put on it. I haven’t done anything creative properly for a while, so I’m hoping to find some kind of peace of mind in all the development that is needed, and at last it will provide me with something more to focus on.

Being a frozen monkey is still fun. I’m having issues with the fact I’m getting far fewer hours than I was hoping for but I’ve been advised by a co-worker to keep pushing and pestering for them. It’s still more money than cleaning, but I’m after more. Hopefully my manager will get the message soon. See I’m even standing up for myself.

Held Up So High, On Such A Breakable Thread

2007-07-12T22:45:00.000+01:00

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

Happy Ending, Avril Lavigne

I saw this and thought of you....

2007-07-11T11:43:00.001+01:00

Just a quickie to say I'm still alive and well. ASDA is still funish, especaially when it's just me and Richard wokring a shift. The sweetie cancelled his holidays for the SECOND time after he was double booked AGAIN by the idiot manager, just so I wouldn' t be left alone in charge of vas amounts of frozen foods.

In breif, my life outside of work has consisted of going to Manchester shopping with Nickers, who behaved himself whilst I bought knickers in Primark. He even behaved in the long que at the tills purely because I got chatting to a girl in front and between us we kept him inline. Girl power!
I've also seen the ever lovely Katie-Jane for brews and munchies, which as always produces a random assortment of random comments.
Jess called up today to give me my Avon. I'm releived and enhopeendeded because she gave me another brochure so she cant be planning on losing touch altogtether. I guess we shall see, but it was nice to chat even if it was for only 10 mins.

My room is also experiencing the start of The Grand Sort Out I meant to have last year prior to uni. Only the beginning but I'm hopin gto do a little every now and again then I don't get bored. Oddly enough the prospect of going out to see Nickers and Katie-Jane yesterday and not being allowed out untill all my shopping bags from the last few weeks had been cleared away meant I did about 40 minuets solid work. I wasnt allowed out to play otherwise. My mum NEVER used that threat when I was younger!

Anyhooo the whole point of this blogg, other than to say I'm still alive, was this photo which I took after having lunch with Mum and Nana in a place called Damm House in Astley, (not far from Salford Manchester). Can you guess who it made me think of?

Naked

2007-07-04T21:55:00.000+01:00

Naked, Avril Lavigne

Well yes a long blogg absence has been had. I do apologise. In brief, I started at ASDA last Wednesday, spent 2 days on an induction with a group of wonderfully lovely people, most of whom were at my group interview. The girl who is going to Lancaster, Emily got a job, as did all of the other lovely people. The induction was lots of fun, if a little brain washing. I can now tell you a disturbing amount about ASDA’s rather American policy of caring for the customer, but at least a huge amount stuck.
Friday and Saturday was spent training for Q Busting, in other words, learning how to use the tills for when it’s busy and I’m needed. Tell you what I loved hearing my name over the speakers the other day! I should explain at this point I’m not a till girl anymore, they shuffled us all around on the induction days and put me in Grocery.
It probably seems a bit early to be fussy, but I’m hoping to transfer back to the checkouts. Grocery is ok, but I prefer being on the tills. Bizarre considering the 9-5.30 shift I pulled on Saturday was exhausting, but I love the customer interaction. Playing peekaboo with the three year old over my till was the highlight of my day! But I enjoy it, and the woman who’s in charge of the tills thought I was brilliant. There’s a couple of BIG disadvantages to be being in the Grocery department. I mainly work in the freezer section and due to my size I CANNOT move the comps full of frozen food. And whoever built the ramp UP to the frozen food storage unit needs their head read. Neways I’m going to looks into moving to checkouts cause well, I can give so much more to ASDA if I’m on the tills.

In other news Luke randomly started talking to me last night. I’m not too sure what to do over it, I was very brief with him. I didn’t realise how much he’d hurt me until last night. I can forgive, that’s not an issue, it’s more, well, forgetting. It didn’t help that he only seemed interested in finding out if there were anymore jobs at ASDA.

I’ve seen Katie-Jane and Nick a couple of times, in particular last night which was fun. Although me falling apart didn’t help matters. I suck sometimes. But its like, well, this;

I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How I feel inside
This life is like a game sometimes

It’s The Memory I Can See, Then This Fear Comes Over Me

2007-06-26T21:59:00.000+01:00

Understand that I don’t mean to push you away from me
Afraid, Vanessa Hudgens

Busy couple of days, it’s my mum’s birthday today so yesterday I went out and got her present. Today we went out with her friend for lunch, which was hilarious as her friend seems to appreciate my sense of humour. We discovered a plant, which was unbelievably weird and thanks to some dodgy translations on it label seemed to be called the “sexy plant”. We bought it with the plan that, as long as it can survive the summer it will head off with me to Lancaster.

Tomorrow is my first day at ASDA. I’m a little excited and not all that nervous but I know it couldn’t have come at a better. I’ve realised that no matter how hard I work at school I will never get the recognition I deserve for the work I do. I’m getting very sick of nasty snippy comments from Marj. After more today I’m very glad there’s only one day left. I know I’m not the only one sick of her comments or the fact she doesn’t do any actual work. Ah well, checkouts here I come.

Beep…..beep…….beep……..beep

If Lonely Was My Only Trouble I’d Find Someone New. The Trouble With Me Is You.

2007-06-24T21:31:00.000+01:00

The Trouble With Me, Crystal Gayle

Right before I get addicted to Facebooks newest application that involves training up fighting bunnies, which is waaaay too much like Pokemon , which explains my addiction to it, well where was I ……oh yes a blogg.

Well this weekend is the same as most. We went shopping yesterday morning, which got cut short when my idiot sister rang to say she’d locked herself out of the house. Once I’d grumbled enough I reminded my parents not to yell too much when they got back because she’d probably got upset enough alone and punished herself effectively. Well that’s what I would have done if it were me.
And you know what? She didn’t get told off, just a few “You silly girl” comments and told she’s not being left home alone for a couple of weeks. Huh. Now I KNOW if it were me I’d have gotten, well, a bollocking. *huffs

Today I was supposed to have a last girlie shopping trip with Zena, but she cancelled late last night. Given she’s going to Ghana on Thursday I can’t begrudge her seeing her granddad or having millions of jobs to do. Yeah I was disappointed but my bank balance breathed a sigh of relief.

Speaking of, has anyone else noticed that when your bank balance nears the £500 or £1000 it just refused to go over the marker? My account is stubbornly teetering around £500. It just won’t go past it and STAY past it. Damn retail therapy which doesn’t even bloody work. My account will get a shock when I get my first ASDA wage AND my last cleaning wage paid in in the same month. I defy it to resist then. *laughs evilly whilst trying not to tempt fate.

I’ve done a little research into my new job. Mainly bus times and fares. I’ve been anxious about being given a very early shift, purely cause I’m reliant on the bus to get there. Thankfully there’s one at 7.12am, and the earliest I said I could start is 7.30am. Which type of weekly ticket I may need will depend on how often/early I’m in. Any more that four days a week and it will be worth a weekly rover.

I Know This Must Seem So Desperate, But Desperate’s What I’ve Become

2007-06-21T13:02:00.000+01:00

Physic, Vanessa Hugdens

Oh there was a rather large bumble bee bashing itself on my window just then. I’d let it in only I have issues with things that sting and have wings.

Neways I handed my notice in at Cleaning, I finish next Friday, the 29th, and have proper induction days at ASDA the 27th/28th. They kindly sent me an information pack today, which is useful cause I now know my hourly pay and stuff like that. Less useful is asking me to ring to confirm I will be attending the induction days and not including the stores number.
It didn’t feel so sad to hand in my notice at work, but one of the girls I’ve gotten really friendly with, Megan, looked heartbroken when I told her. Yeah she was glad for me, but she was sad, I’m not the only one who cleans the sixth form block that’s going, and I know what she feels like. When I finished for uni last year I wasn’t the first to go and the atmosphere changes. I plan to enjoy the next few days with Megan, Millie and Mel, because they rock so hard.

My friend Zena is back, and as she’s not only spending the summer building schools in Ghana but is going on a year long exchange in Detroit I quickly planned a girlie days yesterday with her. Jess also came, and because I am not about to actively exclude someone, I told Jess to invite Liz. Who came. So I spent most of the day wound up, nervous and on edge. Perhaps not ideal, but I met Zena for a brew before we met the others, so I got to explain things with Liz to her as well as I could without making excuses for my behaviour or making her chose sides. She was perhaps the most understanding and supportive of all my friends from my old social group, and was pretty annoyed at Liz for dumping me. We also got to giggle a lot with each other, as a pairing thing happened with Liz and Jess and me and Zena, so I was very happy and giggly with Zena. I’m really upset she’ll be away so much this summer, which can’t be helped and I seriously don’t begrudge it her. Just really gonna miss her, especially when I know how supportive she is. She goes away next Thursday so I’m hoping to see her this weekend and maybe again next week.

I’ve also seen Katie-Jane for lunch on Monday, (I think it was), which was fun. Lots of giggles but also a lot of deeper conversations, and the conclusion that Rawtenstall needs something more than 2 supermarkets.*looks proud that she knows how many customers and the weekly profit of the ASDA there.

On a sadder note Luke is home, has been since last Thursday/Friday. It isn’t looking good for our friendship. He hasn’t been in touch, whilst inviting Jess and Liz round Saturday night and last night before his brief trip to New York. Like I said, it isn’t looking good for our friendship. I mean I’m not writing it off just yet, but it isn’t looking good.

Time Washes Clean, Loves Wounds Unseen....

2007-06-19T12:38:00.000+01:00

......Sounds like good advice but I don't know what it means......

Long Long Time, Mindy Mcreedy

Time......

.......................doesn't always help. It doesnt always heal. Sometimes something more is needed to fix the broken and to heal their wounds.

Happy To Help

2007-06-15T22:50:00.000+01:00

Well as of today I am officially an employee of ASDA. I’ve got a job on checkouts, which will probably be ridiculously boring but it’s gotta be better than cleaning. I start in a couple of weeks. I got a really good vibe when I went to the interview, it was literally the most fun I’ve had all week* and I met a girl who’s not only going to Lancaster next year but has applied to the same accommodation as me. She was lovely. so fingers crossed.

In other news I have sent off my accommodation choices for uni, which was kinda sad seen as I’d always figured Katie would help me pick them and offer advice and stuff but well…..anyway it will either be Cartmel or County next year. Also sent off my student loan stuff, so that should in theory be all sorted now. I also sent off a nice little letter to the DVLA trying to get me a new driving license seen as I have no form of ID if by some miracle I ended up going out** and this evening I went to give blood for the third time. This time went better than last time, after which I nearly fainted and spent the evening very unwell. I did not intend to let it stop me, as long as they say I can donate its worth possibly feeling rubbish for a while because my blood type in the universal donor and very useful.

*yes my life is that tragic
**very very unlikely given I gave no social group anymore and the people I used to go out with I can’t which is horrible because I had a huge amount of fun with them all.

Where Do I Belong?

2007-06-12T22:56:00.000+01:00

Anastasia

Life doesn't promise a bed of roses
Or white knights
Fields of emotions
I'm trapped in darkness
Why me
Save me

To win this twisted war inside me Won't justify the pain
Life doesn't promise a bed of roses

Lightening strikes the pages keep on turning
Help me to be strong
I'm floating in a sea of strange believers
Where do I belong?

I ran into Jess and Liz at Tesco today, at the self service tills. I managed to catch Jesses eye and say hi, despite Liz freezing me out and practically blocking Jesses view of me. We said hi and then they walked off. Literally that was it.
And I realised that’s it, that’s how my entire summer is going to go. Either being completely excluded like I was today, or the two of us being somewhere with others and the tension and in competition to talk to people. Whether they like it or not, people have to choose sides, even if it’s flexible and temporary, they still will and have to. Social occasions will deem it necessary.
It also hit me that I don’t belong to any social group anymore. Liz no longer wants anything to do with me and Luke’s pretty much made it clear he’s on her side. Jess went shopping with Liz today but never even bothers to ask me for a brew or something. I saw Chrish in ASDA on Sunday, and the conversation was brief, I walked off to get my dip and thought she’d follow but she didn’t. Zena will be in Ghana for the summer. Jess Milly is working and hasn’t bothered to see me at all which wasn’t likely. To be blunt, I just don’t have a proper social group. I have friends like Katie-Jane and Nick but I have no actual place where I belong.

I have a job interview on Thursday with ASDA. I don’t know if I want it really, but the money would be useful. If I get it I can see me working all summer because I have sod all else to do and anything would be better than remembering how wonderful last summer was compared this. On the other hand I work at ASDA and I will see even less of Jess, because I barely see her now.

I just……

………..want to go back in time. So badly.

But at least I found my passport for the job interview. It’s been missing for about 7 months now.

Na na na na na nanana STUDBUG!

2007-06-11T22:49:00.001+01:00

Errr, that was supposed to be to the tune of Batman!

Soo the weekend was better than most. I went shopping with the family Saturday morning, then to the local craft fair which is on. Bought a very pretty gold ring. It looks like a lot of little flowers and leaves all twisted together. I’m amazed someone made it in my size as I’ve got rather small fingers!
I went to Katie-Janes in the afternoon. We went for a picnic with Kim and her boyfriend Pete, which was hilarious. Katie suggested we went to the field with tall grass so we could roll a place. Sounded like a good idea, unfortunately the grass was taller than me! So rolling a spot was more like throw the blanket down and hurl yourself on it. We destroyed whole little buggy worlds!
Several more interesting discoveries were made whilst picnicking. One is that Hot Cross Buns are pretty yummy when dipped in sour cream and chive dip. That was Kim’s discovery. Mine was a pair of fornicating bugs on a plant near me. And my, those bugs were sure going for it. They were still at it nearly 45mins later when we left! Defiantly the StudBug of the Bug world.

Oh yeah and the grass attacked me alllll day and gave me some of the biggest sneezing fits ever!

Neways after the picnic and a very long walk we retired to Katie-Janes to bed down and watch American Beauty, (which is pretty weird), and Team America, (which is pretty crap). Unfortunately so much outsideness and walking made us tired so we fell asleep really quickly hehe. But it was a lovely time, and I was so glad to be with nice people.

And I would blogg more but the chance to play games is too big a lure.

You’re Charlie but without the H!

2007-06-08T22:53:00.000+01:00

I should blogg. I haven’t for aaaaaages because I suck.

So, right, well what’ve I been up to in a nutshell? Well last Friday I went for lunch and shopping with Katie-Jane, Kim, and Katie-Jane’s brother and sister. It was very amusing, especially as Kim and I came up with a very interesting theory and totally rearrange the theory of evolution. It went something like this;

Jam was around when the dinosaurs were. What else would the Triceratops put on their leaves other than jam. Jam and toast, leaves and toast, not a big jump.
Ketchup was also around with the dinosaurs because T.Rex’s kinda need something to go with that slab of Triceratops.
Predating those was Tar-tar sauce, which or course appeared at the same time as that fishy primordial soup we crawled out of.

The weekend was less good, mainly because we went to see my Nana on Saturday who decided to spend a good chunk of the day telling me I’m fat or words to that effect. Thank a bunch. And yes she DOES know she’s accusing me of being fat. As if I didn’t have enough issues with my weight and food and stuff.

Earlier this week I went for dinner with Katie-Jane, which was good because it gave us a chance to talk. I like that, someone who understands so completely. *hugs to Katie-Jane.

I was supposed to be going out tonight with Adam but thankfully he had to cancel. I didn’t particularly feel like being groped at or whatever.

Alistair is the Bestest too!

2007-05-31T22:20:00.000+01:00

I was already planning on making that my title but it’s defiantly it after Ali made me this;

Isn’t it cool? Mann I love happy hippos! Happy Hippies don't look so edible though...

Not much has been done today other than me falling in love with the most gorgeous necklace in our local clock and watch shop. It’s seriously nice and methinks I shall use some of my hard earned wage on it tomorrow.

I haven’t done any revision today, which I should have but meh, like it matters. I just haven’t been in the mood. I’m still bruising from being dumped again. My Dad got my cameras memory card developed today. I haven’t looked at the photos, I don’t really want to look at memories of when I was so ridiculously happy. I figured in the future I might but right now I can stick a knife in some other way.

Neways I’m looking forward to seeing Katie-Jane tomorrow for lunch, have been all week. Not only is it contact with a very friendly face but it’s someone who has rapidly become on of my closest confidents. I’m so very grateful for her presence in my life.

Katie-Jane is the Bestest!

2007-05-30T22:15:00.000+01:00

Today has been rather busy. Mum, Katie and I all tootled off to Tesco this morning and had a brunch type thing followed by shopping during which more happy hippos were purchased. Yummy!

After finally managing to have all portions of fruit and veg necessary before dinner I was feeling quite proud of myself. That’s right I had FIVE Froots and Veegg. I’ve been trying to eat healthier in preparation for uni etcetera etcetera so I decided to help mum wash the kitchen walls down. They need doing given that’s the only room of the house my dad is allowed to smoke in. Mum wants to paint it, which is perfectly possible between the 2 of us once exams have finished.

Once I’d recovered from the exhausting wall washing I tackled some more revision notes, and I’m pleased to say I’ve done all the ones I need for Module 2 and made a small start into Module 3 this evening.

Oh yes, one last thing. To the person who left the following anonymous comment on my blogg last night, (honestly have the decency to put your name if you’re commenting or please keep your opinion to yourself, anyway that wasn’t what I was going to say), well here’s the comment in case it mysteriously vanishes;

There's a big difference between 'dumping' a friendship and ending one for the right reasons.

Hmmm, personally the only reason for ending a friendship in my view would be when they say, oh I don’t know, kill you’re mum or gossip maliciously behind your back or deliberately do something to hurt you repeatedly. Maybe I find this so hard to understand because I would never dump a friend. And yes to Miss/Mr Anonymous, I have been dumped, because I have done NOTHING to deserve this, especially when everyday is a fight which I lose everyday. Frankly it’s no better than things with Liz. I spent roughly 2 hours crying last night. No guilt trip intended, just thought I’d be honest.

Thank you for the lovely compliments, and *hugs to Katie-Jane, I love you too honey!

I'm late, I'm late! For a very important date! No time to say hello goodbye I'm late I'm late I'm late!

2007-05-29T22:48:00.000+01:00

Soooo what’s happened since Saturday?
Well I met Jess for a brew on Sunday which was brilliant. I’ve missed her and enjoyed it so much. We had a lovely chat and giggle, as well as a mooch and joint exchange of the wonders of avon.

I went to see my grandparents yesterday, which was also nice. They like me to look all girly, and as I didn’t need to do anyway walking I decided to wear one of my new dresses from Primark. I put it all on and everything then realised, hang on….I look like Alice In Wonderland! See what you think guys.

I guess the only other thing to say is I got dumped by yet another friend tonight. And no, I’m not ok. Why do people keep dumping me?

Oh crap I hope not!

2007-05-26T21:55:00.000+01:00

That was Mr Blands reaction to learning our lesson on Wednesday was our last with him before the exams. I informed him of that fact, and he explained in horror “Oh CRAP I hope not” before running off to get his planner and check.
It didn’t get any more reassuring when he came back five minuets later and walked from the door to the desk saying “Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit”
Thankfully I know he has more faith in us than that makes it seem. But it didn’t do our confidence much good! Hehe it was amusing though, I’ve never heard Mr Bland swear.

Update on the whole police thingy. The dude appeared in court on Wednesday and pleaded guilty to theft, (he’d have to be seriously lacking a brain not to!), and has to pay the court costs, compensation to me, (not holding my breath), and have a curfew. Which pretty much means it’s all over. I’ve filled the claim form out and sent it back and that’s about it.

Hopefully I’ll be seeing Jess tomorrow. She got back Thursday and was in work Friday but I didn’t really get to speak to her beyond a hello. I’m looking forward to seeing her.

Oo Eee Oo Ah Aha Ting Tang Walla Walla Bing Bang

2007-05-22T22:04:00.000+01:00

Witchdoctor, The Cartoons

I suppose I should blogg.

Well the JaneMeet was brilliant, lots of sugar was consumed by me which produced an incredibly hyper mood. It was so lovely to see everyone again, and of course meet Jane, Simon, Helena and her offspring, (Jess is so cute, she kissed me goodbye!!!!, and omigod Emma’s hair is like a force of nature!). Jane was lovely enough to bring us presents from Merkinland, I now have some yummy Double Stuff Oreos to munch on, thank you so much! Ned and Jan surprised me as well by giving me a box of Disney Princess cereal. Ned and I had discussed this weeks ago, and I’d forgotten all about it, so oh wow it was such a surprise! Thank you as well guys!
I also did my first ever geocache with Katie-Jane, Nick and Ali. Although it would help if Nick wasn’t such an idiot and put the coordinates in right but it was funny running around in the wrong places especially as those places lead Nick into the middle of a thorny bush! Heheheheh
I had even more fun on the way down with Katie-Jane, we managed to get very very giggly over lord knows what but I do remember and incident with Chamomile tea or should I say CHAM-omile tea.

In other news my ipod and a few of my cards have been recovered and the thief has appeared in court. I’m very pleased my ipod’s back and in what appears to be fully working order. See, that’s why I try and believe the best in people. Thanks to the hard work of the police justice has pretty much been done.

*insert Farthing Wood theme tune here

2007-05-16T22:42:00.000+01:00

So rather than tell you about my second Chemicals mock I thought I’d tell you about the random thought pattern that I had this morning involving a magpie. I saw one on the way home today, and came to the conclusion on observing it that they were very pretty little birds, and eventually remember to ask how it and its mate were.

That got me to thinking, magpies were, if my memory serves, never in Farthing Wood, (although admittedly I remember the cartoon much better than the books). There were rooks; they featured in the episode where the Pheasants are killed. Mrs Pheasant meets her end when she’s returning from covering look out. Her husband was supposed to be doing it but she didn’t want to wake the lazy bird. So she got shot by the farmer who’s barn the others were hiding in. This did mean the other animals had time to do a runner though.
Pheasant himself also got shot when he went back to the farm to find Adder, who got left behind. He’s so distraught when he sees his plucked and cooked wife he doesn’t see the farmer. Which was the end of the pheasants.

Then I started thinking about the poor hedgehogs who were killed a few episodes before that. Mr Hedgehog freezes up whilst crossing a road and Mrs Hedgehog is far too nice and loyal so stays with him. *cries. And they get run over.

I realised I’m probably a lot like Mrs Hedgehog and Mrs Pheasant. Loyal to the point of stupidity and a total doormat. Ah well, the world needs doormats I suppose.

I miss Farthing Wood, I have every single issue of the magazine somewhere. It was so good! Hehe

You're Killing Me, Killing Me, All I Wanted Was You

2007-05-15T22:37:00.000+01:00

30 Seconds From Mars, The Kill
Tonights blogg was titled for you by Katie-Jane because I’m lazy. Ta honey!

I suppose I should blogg. The last few days I’ve been going by the “if you can’t blogg anything nice don’t blogg at all” which seems to work well for everyone else.

I’ve been out for dinner with Katie-Jane which was a nice distraction from everything else. We had a good mooch and chat about the randomness of life and the universe. It was fun, and I am very much grateful for a friendly face in the valley.

Jess goes away for a week tomorrow, and I’m going to miss her so much. I savour the brief time we get together during work. Oh dear, Liz’s icy stares scare me……

I got a U on the mock for the easy module of Chemicals. Tomorrow is the hard mock. I haven’t really revised, mainly because there’s an element of futility to it but also because I’ve been attempting to do some more art. Apparently that’s due in tomorrow. S***. I have hammered some topics last night with question booklets so I guess I know a bit. Not enough to pass.

The police came and took a proper official statement today, and also went to get one from Jess. I’m aware I haven’t explained all the details to everyone yet, I’ll try and get round to it tomorrow. The police seem to have a fairly good idea of who it is, mainly because he has a tattoo on the side of his head.

2007-05-11T17:34:00.000+01:00

Advanced warning of Bad Mood.

My bag got stolen at work today. I've lost my purse and my ipod. The irony, I cancelled my card within about 20mins of it vanishing, and there was no cash in it. My ipod was worth the most.

Currently in shock.

And wondering why I'm such a gullible idiot.

*will explain later

Gary Barlow IS fat but he wouldn’t bounce.

2007-05-09T22:49:00.000+01:00

And thank you Katie for that hilarious gem.

Just thought I’d cobble together a blogg so people know it’s still in existence. The reason for the move was simple, Liz read my blogg and decided it was a much of lies. Err yes, because she hasn’t started ignoring me we both know I didn’t make that up. She seemed to take issue as well with the comments left by everyone, although no one was nasty about her, and everyone was lovely and supportive. Anyway now she can’t read it because it’s been moved. She had the nerve to post a bulletin on myspace and facebook ordering everyone to read it, but as that web address no longer exists those links don’t work. *smiles evilly

It was perhaps wise, especially given she had a screaming go at me yesterday after work, demanding to know how dare I say she wasn’t entitled to see Luke and that who was I to dictate his whole weekend should be around me and how dare I guilt trip her by saying I was depressed. I don’t ever recall saying she wasn’t entitled to see Luke nor did I expect him to plan his weekend around me. What I did expect was some time with him, given he’s supposed to be one of my best friends. It’s the same as I expect to see my other friends when they come home, unless I know they have a hugely busy time planned.
Anyway I spent a horrible 5 minuets trying to escape her anger, there was no point in talking to her because all she wanted to do was scream at me and tell me how pathetic I am. I’ve been told by someone else that she doesn’t believe my GP’s diagnosis of depression.
Maybe she’s one of those people who don’t view mental illnesses like depression as real illnesses because you can’t see them. I don’t really know, all I can do is avoid her as best I can which is sad but necessary.

In other lighter news, I blew up a bottle in Chem today, intentionally. Mr Bland scaled up a Royal Society of Chemists experiment that involves filling a bottle with oxygen and methane and using a lit taper sending it blasting off into the air. He tried a litre bottle instead of a 500ml one and wow was it good. So funny as well.
Saw Katie this evening, we went for a little drive which helped cheer me up. After The Screaming yesterday seeing a friendly face made all the difference. As did seeing Jess briefly during work and getting to have her to myself for a few minutes for a girly giggle over something.
Tomorrow I see the doctor and Meat Loaf so there may be no blogg. OOOO Meat!!!

This Is When I Start To Bite My Nails, Clean My Room When All Else fails

2007-05-07T22:40:00.000+01:00

He Wasn’t, Avril Lavigne

So Luke never got in touch. I didn’t text him because I didn’t fancy spending the whole day watching the phone. I did anyway, in the vain hope he’d get in touch. A sixth sense told me he wasn’t going to anyway. Yah I could have called him, but I didn’t fancy being rejected over the phone or being a pain in the ass and pestering.

I wanted to have a Big Adventure today, but my parents don’t really do Bank Holidays. I can understand why, but I just wanted to do something. I had high hopes for this weekend but it’s been such a flop.
In the end we went to Tesco, which wasn’t quite what I had in mind but I guess it was something. I found a lovely black pinafore dress with a bright pink t-shirt underneath. It was in the kids section but the 13-14 year olds fit me perfectly and doesn’t look half bad. Kinda made me feel a little better for a little while, but I shouldn’t be spending really.

Spent the afternoon working on my prep for art, and I’ve managed to cobble something that looks remotely like a project. It helped to take my mind of things. Just not very well.

Katie-Jane managed to capture a lot of what I feel or want to say in her most recent blogg entry. Her link is on my sidebar, with the blogg links. It’s comforting to know someone knows exactly how you’re feeling.

Sit On The Bed Alone, Staring At The Phone

2007-05-06T21:37:00.000+01:00

He Wasn’t, Avril Lavigne

I seem to recall saying something last week about the possibility of being at a party this weekend. Luke’s come home, plus 2 uni friends, for his dads birthday party tonight. His mum made a loose invite to Liz and me last time we were round, and as they operate under a “more the merrier” thing my presence wouldn’t really be a problem.

The prospect of seeing Luke, whether I went to his party or not, has kept me going the last couple of weeks. I’ve been looking forward to it lots.

Unfortunately the only contact I’ve had has been him replying to my text yesterday saying he was busy all day. And he didn’t even reply today. I pretty much know I’m not going to see him. Sure I could ring him and stomp my feet and be demanding but I don’t see why I should have to. Surely he should want to see me, and be able to make a couple of hours for me. He’ll have made time for Liz, that’s a dead cert.

Oh well, maybe I’ll just stay in bed tomorrow.

Is That Too Much That I'm Askin' For?

2007-05-04T22:52:00.000+01:00

Too Much To Ask, Avril Lavigne

So I got some Chemicals coursework done today, I stayed behind for an hour after class to finish that very stressful coursework. Dr Spinx was lovely and practically held my hand, and I realised the calculations that we needed were mostly from module one, which explains why they got me all confuddled. It’s all done now though, hopefully that means I’ll get a decent grade on one of the three modules.

I also found out why Liz hasn’t been speaking to me for the last week. There seem to be 2 reasons really, the first being that I grassed up one of the cleaners last week when he came in a told the bosses a total lie. There seems to have been some corruption of what I actually said to Marj and Linda, and they seem to have actually told Liz what I’d said to them, (frankly that in itself strikes me as totally unprofessional on M&L’s part). Second seems to be my apparent “pathetic poor me” act. Now I’ve made a real effort to be ok around Jess and Liz, although last Thursday I was a little down and quiet but I was anxious about the doctors, and they did know I was going although not what for.

I haven’t told Liz or Jess that I’ve been diagnosed with depression or that I’m on pills for it. Liz vanished offline shortly after the poor me stuff was mentioned so I decided that maybe it would explain thing more to her if I shared some of that. I text her, (yes I know not the best method of conversation but the least confrontational), and told her that it wasn’t an act, that I am actually depressed but getting help for it and she could either support me or not.

She didn’t speak to me when I walked into work 45 minuets later, so I guess you can see which action she’s taking there.

I want to be her friend, even if it feels like the one time I need something from our friendship she won’t give it. I’ve been there for her, so it seems only fair. But it also feels increasingly like I’m not allowed to be unhappy, you know, I’ve always got to be ok so I can be there to help her or others when they need it. I never used to mind that, I like looking after people and caring about them, but right now whilst I can still do that I need some looking after myself. Am I really asking an awful lot here?

And you wonder why I shared something with you that no one else knows Nick. You seemed so surprised, but with friends like Liz floating around here do you blame me for keeping my feelings close to my chest now?

On a much light happificated note, lookey here little trundles! They’re almost as cute as bunnies. Except you can see their erm thingies.

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Oh It’s Cold And Lonely In The Deep Dark Night

2007-05-03T22:58:00.000+01:00

Paradise By The Dashboard Light, Meat Loaf

I’m back! Did anyone miss me?

So I have returned from my trip to see Katie in Lancaster. There was one bunny sighting, only one, but that’d still a rabbit. Hopefully they will get very busy between now and next year and make me lots of baby bunny play mates.

I’m all sleepy now, but I had lots of fun in Lancaster with the luffly Katie and at the Cheese Club later. The cheese club is great; they played MEAT LOAF much to my delight, (and Katie’s horror). I actually got to dance and sing my heart out to Paradise By The Dashboard Light. So cool! I actually dragged Katie onto the dance floor, she wasn’t too impressed. (Sorry honey).
I also got to meet Crazy Nick, who isn’t so crazy but very nice. So glad he’ll be on campus next year so I will have a friend. He didn’t seem too freaked out by a rather hyper me, half an Easter egg soon goes to your head!

Someone Ripped My Heart Out And Left Me Here To Bleed

2007-05-01T22:55:00.000+01:00

Anything But Ordinary, Avril Lavigne. Errr I changed those just a tad, but that fits better.

So today involved Chemicals, a brew and Tesco shop and watching the last episodes of Cheer Series Five, which ends when Diane Chambers bums off to write some book and as far as I know doesn’t come back. Which means when I get Series Six I get to my favourite episodes with Kirsty Alley Rebecca who was far less annoying than Shelly Longs Diane.

I was very excited at work when I was told I would be doing Corridor 2. This being a patch in the Broadway building of the school, and one of the few, possibly the only one I have not done. I really wanted to do it, so I stood there squeaking with delight. My bosses took a sudden and odd dislike to my happiness and decided I was to do 2 hours of detail instead. I was rather devastated.
Now detail, for the non cleaners, involves a bucket of water and a cloth and wiping/spraying/cleaning stuff like walls and ledges around the school. I wear gloves for this because sticking my hands in a bucket of water for 2 hours is horrible. However my eczema has been very bad recently, and that is located on my hands. After about 10 minuets in the gloves, (which quickly become damp inside), my hands were starting to sting. This progressed to pain followed by agony by the end of the 2 hours. I found as many reasons to take my gloves off and waft my hands about as possible. Unfortunately as soon as they were out the gloves they began to itch. Which posed the next dilemma, how do I not scratch? Rubbing my hands on my jeans roughly seemed to be the best way.
So now I can’t bend my fingers, so I can’t hold a pen. Buggar.

I’m off to Lancaster for the night tomorrow, so I shall see you on Thursday.

I Miss You, Miss You So Bad, I Don’t Forget You, Oh It’s So Sad

2007-04-30T22:45:00.000+01:00

Slipped Away, Avril Lavigne

Well my art exam is all done now. That just leaves the prep to do, and Module 2 to somehow finish. Err yeah I don’t think that’s gonna happen somehow. At least I’ve done the worst bit, sitting in a classroom with 3 strange boys, who I decided from their conversations were actually mostly a bunch of jerks. The final piece came together better than I thought it would, but it’s all a far cry from how my work used to be.

Jess is apparently my friend, she didn’t reply due to no battery, so at least I have one friend in the valley. We had a good giggle during work and a deep discussion of Neighbours. I haven’t seen Liz and she hasn’t been online so I don’t know what’s going on there at all yet.

Wednesday I’m taking a trip to Lancaster to visit Katie. We’re going to go out to Le Cheese Club and have some girly fun.

Right now I’m rather worried about a few of my friends. For privacy reason I’m not going into the details of one. The other one would be Adam. He’s had a pretty rough time recently; his granny ended up in hospital, he’s pretty sure he’s on the wrong uni course and his grandad died last Friday. He told me today he thinks he’s depressed, (don’t I know the feeling) which is kinda understandable. There is only so much you can do over the internet. *frets and focuses on other peoples more important problems.

Better than missing everything about someone you can’t even see or talk to.

You’ll Never Know How Much I Miss You

2007-04-29T22:15:00.000+01:00

You’ll Never Know, Mindy McCready

A surprise trip out with Katie was on the cards today. Well it wasn’t a surprise for me, we planned to do her Tesco shop together when I knew she was coming home, but her parents didn’t know. It was lovely to see her for an hour or so, we had an amusing time as always in Tesco and she was wrapped when I gave her the Thornton’s Pink Pigs I’d bought her as a surprise present. He he so worth it to see her face light up.

I’m nowhere near ready for my art exam tomorrow. I discovered the picture I was supposed to use looks pretty rubbish once I’d printed it from Google Earth. The thought of being trapped in the classroom all day when I just want to disappear is frightening for me right now.

It’s pretty obvious Liz isn’t speaking to me, and I haven’t had a reply from Jess. I text her trying to find out what I’ve done wrong and if she was my friend. I guess that’s a no then……..

That brings the number of people I have here at home down to zero.

I bought a 150g bar of Milkybar chocolate this morning and a 100g bar of those Cabury Melt thingies Jenny recommended. It’s all gone now. Guess that suggests how I’m feeling.
It all hurts so much. I miss…..well things, so much.